bringmeback7693

Holy crap. 73 days!!!

I was looking back on my earlier posts, there was so much hopelessness, so much bitterness. My world was so dark and I saw no hope for the future of sobriety.

Here I am, 73 days clean. Wow. I used to drink 4-5 days a week.

I'm working the steps. I have a sponsor. I have a few people in AA I like to talk to.

I have things to look forward to (working my steps, telling my story, YPAA conferences, meeting new people, sponsoring others.) I never thought there would be so much to look forward to in AA!

I still have the alcohol dreams, frequently, but now they are very fear-based, fearing that I've relapsed and messed it all up. I wake up in a state of panic. I went to Maine for a week where I actually really didn't crave a drink at all!

I've been to restaurants that serve alcohol, I've even been to bars. I don't particularly like going to bars, but I've gotten through the experience without drinking.

I still have a long way to go. I have a lot of steps to work. I haven't totally "found my place" in AA yet, and socializing while sober is still uncomfortable. I still don't like to see people drink in front of me. I have a lot of service work to do.

But wow. Wow wow wow. I've gone 2.5 months without drinking, after almost 8 years of being unhappy with drinking. If that's not a miracle, I don't know what is.

january161992

young people in alcoholics anonymous was a big part of my early sobriety

great demonstration of willingness ...

willingness to follow direction

Free39

Way to go! Today is my day two. Your posts are inspiring to me. Thank you, and keep posting! 🤗

goodbyeevan

Too awesome. Thanks for sharing. I'm going to try and go to my state's YPAA conference next month. I'm on step 6 at 4 months sober. Every day I wake up still feels like a miracle. Keep up the amazing work!

lessgravity

Terrific stuff - a huge congrats.

Dee74

congrats bringingmeback - you're doing this

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