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Old 07-11-2018, 05:28 AM
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Day 73

Holy crap. 73 days!!!

I was looking back on my earlier posts, there was so much hopelessness, so much bitterness. My world was so dark and I saw no hope for the future of sobriety.

Here I am, 73 days clean. Wow. I used to drink 4-5 days a week.

I'm working the steps. I have a sponsor. I have a few people in AA I like to talk to.

I have things to look forward to (working my steps, telling my story, YPAA conferences, meeting new people, sponsoring others.) I never thought there would be so much to look forward to in AA!

I still have the alcohol dreams, frequently, but now they are very fear-based, fearing that I've relapsed and messed it all up. I wake up in a state of panic. I went to Maine for a week where I actually really didn't crave a drink at all!

I've been to restaurants that serve alcohol, I've even been to bars. I don't particularly like going to bars, but I've gotten through the experience without drinking.

I still have a long way to go. I have a lot of steps to work. I haven't totally "found my place" in AA yet, and socializing while sober is still uncomfortable. I still don't like to see people drink in front of me. I have a lot of service work to do.

But wow. Wow wow wow. I've gone 2.5 months without drinking, after almost 8 years of being unhappy with drinking. If that's not a miracle, I don't know what is.
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Old 07-11-2018, 09:51 AM
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Originally Posted by bringmeback7693 View Post
YPAA conferences
young people in alcoholics anonymous was a big part of my early sobriety

great demonstration of willingness ...

willingness to follow direction

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Way to go! Today is my day two. Your posts are inspiring to me. Thank you, and keep posting! 🤗
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Too awesome. Thanks for sharing. I'm going to try and go to my state's YPAA conference next month. I'm on step 6 at 4 months sober. Every day I wake up still feels like a miracle. Keep up the amazing work!
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Terrific stuff - a huge congrats.
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congrats bringingmeback - you're doing this

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