brighterday1234

It wasn’t the material losses and all of the social and family problems that made me reach the point where I was willing to commit to sobriety. It was the emotional rock bottom that I felt; I felt lost and hopeless and like life was a struggle and burden that was too much for me. Getting wasted seemed like the only restbite from this emotional turmoil. I couldn’t live with alcohol or see a future without it.

I committed to recovery and this feeling is but a distant memory now but one that I am always aware of and so, so grateful that I found a solution and recovered. It is a wonderful feeling to have peace of mind and a feeling of optimism and hope for my future, whatever that may entail.

Grateful to be sober.

Rar

I get this! Me too!

FreeOwl

Me three!!!

I can remember - in my emotional memory - the FEELING of that despair....

Berrybean

Me four.

Grateful09

For me, the emotional rock bottom moment was so overwhelming that I had to pull over (I was driving to work after a night of drinking way too much, passing out, stressing out my husband, etc etc), and sit at the side of the road. I could not operate a motor vehicle at that moment. I don't know how long I sat there.

But your post reminds me that I had to get to that point before I was willing to find AA, and to commit to quitting. And yes, I'm also very grateful.

thomas11

What a great post. I've never been so broken as I was towards the end of my drinking days. Some of the lowest moments of my life.

Hevyn

It's so helpful to know others have had our very own thoughts & feelings. We're never alone - we have each other. Thank you so much, brighterday. I can never afford to forget where I've been.

brighterday1234

Glad you got something from my post In experiencing the dark it allows us to be truly grateful for the light.