Weekender Thread 5th - 9th July 2018
Oh yes.....oh YES.....I inherited my mother's love of shoes....and I didn't know until I moved here because I have not been able to afford shoes since I moved out of my parents' house....oh....oh....my gorgeous shoes....here are two pairs that would make my mother's heart sing.
Comfy shoes only for this chick...not a girly-girl (make-up only if I'm gonna be meeting my favorite rockstars....otherwise forget it!)
Thanks Trach, Venus and everyone...you are right! You're all stuck with me!!!
Thanks Trach, Venus and everyone...you are right! You're all stuck with me!!!
But you still need 30 pairs of shoes. I suppose it would be bad having to keep them organized - alphabetically - and by color - and by day of the week.
I just choose to overlook the rather scattered organizing I call my closet - and the immediate vicinity.
Yep. Makeup? Why? Comfy shoes all the way. All my high heels are boxed up and available if/when I ever feel like it's worth going somewhere that requires such torture.
LOL Right?!? Whenever I would go out with a group of friends, the rest of the girls would all be getting ready, and there I am in jeans and a tshirt....I'd usually get the "Is that what you're wearing?" comment....YEP! Sure is!
So funny.
Make up when I go out, not at home (much) and I like my girly girly shoes (there are lots....I am going to count later and see if I have 30 pairs yet ) but I am a pants chic....no skirts or frilly dresses for this little black duck. Not ever. Drove my mother crazy.
Mind you my wedding dress is lovely and I will happily wear it again to something fancy.
Make up when I go out, not at home (much) and I like my girly girly shoes (there are lots....I am going to count later and see if I have 30 pairs yet ) but I am a pants chic....no skirts or frilly dresses for this little black duck. Not ever. Drove my mother crazy.
Mind you my wedding dress is lovely and I will happily wear it again to something fancy.
Oh yeah that reminds me....when my sister got married my mom actually bought me a dress (so I couldn't use the "I have nothing to wear" excuse)....so there was a group picture of us on fb and someone commented "Is that Kate?"
Hey Weekenders, hope you are all keeping up the good fight!
Well, suprisingly...I am still at rehab! Last week was a really tough week, Wednesday was the worst and best day I have ever had. I finally surrendered! I have been hearing all this talk for the month I have been here about this and that unless you truly surrender and hold your hands out for support, take that support and accept your ways do not work you are not giving yourself a chance at real recovery. I believed I had...but I hadn't at all, denial at it's best!.
Wednesday I had a chat with someone (the guy that put his foot in the door that I complained about on an earlier post) and it was the most important conversation I had had, I learned compassion, humility and that sometimes the beauty, support and understanding can come from the strangest of places. This trickled into the rest of the day where I had family feedback, your family have to send in a questionaire about how your addiction affects them, what kind of person they think you are etc. Tough stuff! It broke me, I finally cried for 5 hours, everything was so clear to me and each realisation was like a firework in my head. What I was doing by leaving rehab, was the same old behaviour I have repeated all my life...it didn't work before and unless I do something different I am just going to get the same as I always have.
Surrender feels terrifying, but freeing and hopeful at the same time.
Take care everyone and be good!! xxx
Well, suprisingly...I am still at rehab! Last week was a really tough week, Wednesday was the worst and best day I have ever had. I finally surrendered! I have been hearing all this talk for the month I have been here about this and that unless you truly surrender and hold your hands out for support, take that support and accept your ways do not work you are not giving yourself a chance at real recovery. I believed I had...but I hadn't at all, denial at it's best!.
Wednesday I had a chat with someone (the guy that put his foot in the door that I complained about on an earlier post) and it was the most important conversation I had had, I learned compassion, humility and that sometimes the beauty, support and understanding can come from the strangest of places. This trickled into the rest of the day where I had family feedback, your family have to send in a questionaire about how your addiction affects them, what kind of person they think you are etc. Tough stuff! It broke me, I finally cried for 5 hours, everything was so clear to me and each realisation was like a firework in my head. What I was doing by leaving rehab, was the same old behaviour I have repeated all my life...it didn't work before and unless I do something different I am just going to get the same as I always have.
Surrender feels terrifying, but freeing and hopeful at the same time.
Take care everyone and be good!! xxx
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