SWB

Ended up drinking a pint of vodka last night wtf is wrong with me? I give up

Gottalife

Asked myself the same question having done the same thing a thousand times. I am an alcoholic. I lost the power of choice in drink and I never got it back. At certain times the thoughts that should enable me to make the sane and rational decision to not drink were nowhere to be found.

There is a solution in the AA prpgram (as distinct from the meetings) but it only works for those who honestly want to do it and are willing to make the effort. Over to you.

Obladi

Don't give up.

Make a decision to make this Day One. Stick with it. Deal with tomorrow when it comes. It really is much more simple if you deal with now as if that's all there is.

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Hevyn

You're not giving up, SWB. You're still learning. Took me a few tries, but I have over 10 yrs. sober - so I know this is possible - and you can do it. Never give up on a better life for yourself.

doggonecarl

I'm going to hazard a guess and say that what you are doing to achieve sobriety isn't enough. Here's what you posted yesterday in regards to what your plan was:

What in this plan is going to help you cope with life sober? To address the problems your drinking is causing and provide a solution?

You seem adverse to the tried and proven methods of recovering from alcoholism. Why? Instead of giving up, give the things you've been avoiding a try.

Dee74

nothing that's not wrong with the rest of us

Carls pretty blunt, but he's right SWB.

I hoped that all I needed to do was to declare I would no longer drink.

I didn't want to change much beyond that. Change was terrifying to me.

I tried to 'wing' it - but before to ,long I ran up against something - a situation, person feeling, place - and caved in.

If your only tool is a hammer all your problems look like nails.

Put down the bottle/tool and get some new tools and strategies and start working on them everyday

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)

Don't give up - work harder

D

SWB

Well after a 2 day relapse I’m back to night 1 again. I’m pissed at my av, perhaps I can use this as a tool.

Gottalife

Glad you are still alive SWB, so there is still hope. I am not sure how being angry at an illness will help overcome it. Sounds like a novel new approach to me.

Mine was more along the lines of despair. Why does this keep happening, why can't I beat it, what's wrong with me? I came to realise I lacked the power so I did the obvious thing and got some power. I now have all the power I need to live a satisfying life without alcohol.

SWB

Made it home from work without stopping, Day 2. When my av starting talking I decided that it brings nothing redeeming to the table and actually takes everything from it. Might try to take in a meeting tomorrow.

Hevyn

SWB - You're so right - it takes everything from us & leaves us with emptiness & sorrow. Congrats on your Day 2. You sound ready for a sober life.

Rar

How are you doing today SWB? Day 3 and maybe meeting day?