My ex has died Got a message from his first wife whom he hated. He is in the grave. Drinking and smoking over it. That's all there is to say |
It's horrible phoning someone to see how they are and they don't answer because theyare dead . He's been through 4 wives. At least the first had the guts to tell me. |
Hi sweetichick - I can empathise with this totally. My ex husband passed away last year, (I was wife number 3 out of 4). He died from smoking, imbibing too many drugs and enough Jack Daniels to float a boat. I heard it on the grapevine and attended his funeral. I found it bitterweet - bitter because he could have done so much more and sweet because at least one of us had the good sense to turn their lives around in time. I'm sorry for your loss as, at least for me, it still hurts. You can't discount years with somebody "just like that". Please PM me if you feel that you'd like to talk about it hun. Much love Yix x |
I'm sorry for your loss. He may be gone, but you are still very much alive. Treat yourself better. You deserve it. |
All I will say is first condolences. I went no contact with my alcoholic ex husband in 2009, he died in 2017. We divorced in 09 after 8 years. I then spent another 8 years hating him. I wish to heck I had been sober when I found out he died, I really wish I didn't use alcohol to cope. I had a ton of resentments that boiled over once he was dead and set off a over a year of hell for me, until by the grace of God I got sober. Took maybe three months then to let it all go. Today I am in a great place, happy, I don't cry for him or feel bad for him, he was offered the gift of sobriety time and time again, he refused. I thank God every day I took it and cling on with both hands. I hold onto the good memories of the marriage, but they are in that part of my mind where all the good memories of past relationships hang out. Bad memories I banish. Sobriety helped me do that. |
Death is scary. And I think maybe it makes us think of our own mortality....what that means? What am I doing with my life? It just causes a lot of existential crisis. My parents are at the end of the line. I have been taking care of them for a couple weeks at a time. It is really sad. Difficult. Especially seeing my mother so powerless. She was always the 'strong' one. But if I can help them leave this world with dignity that is a gift. I try to focus on that. If I've read all your posts correctly I believe this person had a very negative effect on your life? If I have that wrong I'm sorry. Is this possibly a final close on a chapter in your life that kept you in the past? Maybe there are some messages for your in his death? Maybe its time to start living SC. Let go of the past and move forward. I hope you are doing better physically. |
Sweetchick, You sound like you are not sure how to deal with the shock of the news. I can imagine the irony of calling to check in on someone shortly after their passing and wishing you had picked up the phone earlier. Your first post says" "that's all there is to say." You posted shortly after that. I think thou dost protest too much. As much as you want that to be all there is to say, I suspect you have a lot to say. When you are ready, this is a safe place to share your thoughts and feelings about this. Get it all out sweetie! |
Sorry to hear that you are drinking Sweetichick. I hope someday you can find the strength to take care of yourself. |
I am so sorry for you loss :( Please take care of yourself! |
I'm sorry for your loss Sweetichick! Please take care of yourself. Stop drinking and have faith that you can deal with the emotions as a sober person. |
Originally Posted by sweetichick
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It's horrible phoning someone to see how they are and they don't answer because theyare dead . Now, put down the drink and smoke and let your feelings take their natural progression. We're here if you need to vent. |
Sorry he died. Death is never easy to go through. That is no excuse to drink. That is no excuse to not move forward with your life. To be blunt, you had issues with him for a long time, you relapsed over him for a long time, there was so much drama there. DO good by all that and get better. Be better, don't follow him to the grave, that would be the biggest mistake of your life. Take this as a life lesson, we are all no closer to the grave than the next person, choosing to live the best life is a choice and a damn good one! My prayer for you for the day is to START to recover, get off the excuse cycle and start to live a life free of addiction. free from drama and enjoy the HAPPINESS sobriety has to offer. You are worth it :) |
I'm sorry for your grief. My guess is there were a lot of unresolved issues to do with him before he died. Now he's gone, but you can still resolve those issues that need to be resolved within yourself. Please share more when you feel like it. As someone wrote, this is safe place to let it out. You know drinking isn't going to resolve the issues....it will just delay it. |
Thanks everyone for your words of support. There was a lot of unresolved issues with him. I think I am just in a state of shock. He has 4 wives. One is dead from alcoholism. At least the first had the decency to contact me. It was just so sudden. He always looked so healthy. I guess cancer can creep up to anyone. I feel sorry for his children step child and associated family. I was just a trouble making blotch to his second and fourth wives. |
((sweetchick)) I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure you are in a state of shock. Please do take care of yourself. We care about your well being. :hug: You can share your thoughts here. It always helps to talk things out rather than keep your feelings bottled up. |
Take care yourself please, sweeti. Drinking and smoking helps nothing. I'm sorry for your loss. |
Originally Posted by sweetichick
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Thanks everyone for your words of support. There was a lot of unresolved issues with him. I think I am just in a state of shock. He has 4 wives. One is dead from alcoholism. At least the first had the decency to contact me. It was just so sudden. He always looked so healthy. I guess cancer can creep up to anyone. I feel sorry for his children step child and associated family. I was just a trouble making blotch to his second and fourth wives. |
Hi Sweetichick, I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you are able to work toward your sobriety. |
Thanks again for the support. I am nearly at the end of my bottle of vodka. Afterwards I plan on facing this sober. |
Originally Posted by sweetichick
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I was just a trouble making blotch to his second and fourth wives. Sorry for your loss sweetie. Please, do draw a line under the drinking though. You know it is resolving nothing, just stopping you process your emotions and thoughts so you can grieve properly. Plenty of people here have got through deaths of loved ones in sobriety, and they're here to support you to do the same. Wouldn't it be nice to rock up to his funeral and pay respectful respects, sober and dignified? BB |
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