Insidious thoughts
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Insidious thoughts
Lately I've been having some thoughts creep back into my brain. My AV talking, I suppose. It feels like it's the devil talking to me.
"Why don't you just take one drink? "
"Go get a bottle of wine. No one is home. No one will know."
"Do you really want to be sober for the REST of your life?"
Why am I having these thoughts?! I'm 53 days sober and I've been doing great. Why would I throw it all away now?
Anyone else have these thoughts? It scares me, but sometimes I want to listen.
"Why don't you just take one drink? "
"Go get a bottle of wine. No one is home. No one will know."
"Do you really want to be sober for the REST of your life?"
Why am I having these thoughts?! I'm 53 days sober and I've been doing great. Why would I throw it all away now?
Anyone else have these thoughts? It scares me, but sometimes I want to listen.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Posts: 25,373
It is lying to you.
We all hear that voice, that cognitive dissonance. In order to stay sober, find a way to talk back to it.
"Uh huh. I don't drink."
It's just a little peep every now and then for me, but I didn't give in to it. I think giving in would give it a lot of power, so I didn't.
We all hear that voice, that cognitive dissonance. In order to stay sober, find a way to talk back to it.
"Uh huh. I don't drink."
It's just a little peep every now and then for me, but I didn't give in to it. I think giving in would give it a lot of power, so I didn't.
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Don't allow any cracks
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Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 6,348
...... the old, insidious insanity - that first drink. One definition of insanity is when a sober alcoholic picks up that first drink. Today I don't have to act on that thought. I nod as it passes by me searching the universe for someone willing. We witness it daily - a little time and the act of picking up that first drink. Plenty who will. I certainly did many times.
Ya know, the results worsened over time. Finally, the obstacles to my sobriety were removed - love of family, job, house etc.
Keep trudgin
Unless you're cured, of course .......
Best
Ya know, the results worsened over time. Finally, the obstacles to my sobriety were removed - love of family, job, house etc.
Keep trudgin
Unless you're cured, of course .......
Best
12 Step Recovered Alcoholic
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 6,613
I didn't really have that experience after I committed to AA. By 58 days, I would say I was at step 5 and things were really changing. If I had hung back, like so many do, I am sure that the obsession would have come back. It always did before.
Having taken those steps and incorporated those principles in my life I find I am not alone in my sobriety. The fact that God and the steps stand firmly between me and the next drink, means I have not had any serious thoughts of drinking since... I got into God and the steps.
What is your progress in this area. Meetings are good as far as they go, but they are not the AA program of recovery.
Having taken those steps and incorporated those principles in my life I find I am not alone in my sobriety. The fact that God and the steps stand firmly between me and the next drink, means I have not had any serious thoughts of drinking since... I got into God and the steps.
What is your progress in this area. Meetings are good as far as they go, but they are not the AA program of recovery.
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