Panic setting in.
 

My drinking has always come with impulsive and excessive spending. I am behind on this month's rent because I drank half of it. I received a notice about being evicted and I am terrified. Last year I was evicted and lost a job so my family is financially supporting me given I am not able to work with my current state of mental health/addiction. I will have to call my father and explain that I screwed up again. I hate this. 41 years old and unable to support myself. I hate this disease.

Waste,

Nobody wants to touch these kind of posts.

Imo....you are eventually going to be forced to quit or at least cut back. You will end up out of options. As a father, I know that if my son became a drunk, i would eventually disown him.

The insane drunk begging for help would no longer be my son until he decided to get clean.

I relate that once we have shown out drinking tendencies it is tough to recover.

I don't consider drinking a disease any more because we choose to do it. We don't choose cancer or exyma.

I used to curl up in a ball and whimper until the crave went away.

These are your earning years. Try to get clean and get to work.

You are going to end up homeless or worse.

Hope this helps you.

I remember doing that too WL :(

You really can make this the last time you have to do this, man :)

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Problem identified.

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