My disease

Old 06-17-2018, 11:58 PM
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My disease

When I was struggling 2 months ago and got myself back into A AM an A A friend sent this to me and it sent shiver down my spine. If I ever think that alcohol will help me I read this. Wine was my drink of choice and I personally imagine it is a chilled bottle of white wine saying these words to me.,,,


You know who I am, you致e called me your friend
Wishes of misery and heartache I send
I want only to see that you池e brought to your knees
I知 the devil inside you, I am your disease.

I値l invade all your thoughts, I値l take hostage your soul
I値l become your new master, in total control
I値l maim your emotions, I値l run the whole game
Till your entire existence is crippled with shame

When you call me I come, sometimes in disguise
Quite often I値l take you by total surprise
But take you I will, and just as you致e feared
I値l want only to hurt you, with no mercy spared

If you have your own family, Ill see its destroyed
I値l steal every pleasure in life you致e enjoyed
I値l not only hurt you, I値l kill if I please
I知 your worst living nightmare, I am your disease

I bring self destruction, but still you can稚 tell
I値l sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell
I値l chase you forever, wherever you go
And then when I catch you, you won稚 even know

I値l sometimes lay silent, just waiting to strike
What痴 yours becomes mine, cuz I take what I like
I値l take all you own and I won稚 care who sees
I知 your constant companion I am your disease

If you have any honor, I値l strip it away
You値l lose all your hope and forget how to pray
I値l leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare
I値l reduce you to nothing, and won稚 even care

So, don稚 take for granted my powers sublime
I値l bend and I値l break you, time after time
I値l crumble your world with the greatest of ease
I知 that madman inside youI am your disease

But today I知 real angryyou want to know why?
I let this treatment center full of Addicts entirely slip by
How did I lose you? Where did I go wrong?

One minute I had youthen next you were gone

You just can稚 dismiss all the good times we致e shared
When you were alonewasn稚 it I who appeared?
When you sold those possessions you knew you would need
Wasn稚 I the first one who stepped in and agreed

Now look at you bastards, you池e all thinking clear
You escaped with your lives when you found your way here
Only fools think they池e winners when admitting defeat
It痴 what you must say when you池e claiming that seat

Go ahead and surrender, if that痴 what you choose
But, I知 not giving up. cuz I can稚 stand to lose
So stand in your groups and support hand in hand
Better choices will save youleaving me to be damned

Well, be damned all you people seeking treatment each week
Be damned inner strength, however unique
Be damned all your sayings, be damned your cliches
Be damned every addict, who back to me strays

For I know it will happen, I致e seen it before
Those who love misery will crawl back for more
So take comfort in knowing, I知 waiting right here
But next time around, you壇 just better beware

You think that you池e stronger or smarter this time
There isn稚 a mountain or hill you can稚 climb
Well if that痴 what you池e thinkin, you ain稚 learned a thing
I値l still knock you silly if you step back in my ring

But you say you致e surrendered, so what can I do?
It痴 so sad in a way, I had big plans for you
Creating your nightmare for me was a dream
I知 sure gonna miss youwe made quite a team

So please don稚 forget me, I won稚 forget you
I値l stand by your side watching all that you do
I知 ready and waiting, so call if you please
I won稚 let you forget meI am your disease
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