Weekender 14-18 June 2018
Weekender 14-18 June 2018
Hi
I want to welcome anyone new to SR and new to this thread.
Weekends can be a tough time, and that's what this thread is about - support.
We also share bits and pieces of our lives and the things that are important to us, or make us laugh
If you've never jumped into a weekender thread before - do it now!
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I want to welcome anyone new to SR and new to this thread.
Weekends can be a tough time, and that's what this thread is about - support.
We also share bits and pieces of our lives and the things that are important to us, or make us laugh
If you've never jumped into a weekender thread before - do it now!
Hello and thanks almighty D
Here's to another sober weekend everyone.
Yesterday evening in a press in our house hidden inside in a sleeping bag I found two bottles of white wine and 3 coronas from my last relapse in february. Typical enough situation my wife had come home to find me conked and hid the booze.
It drove me mental for a while looking at it, at first I said nothing, thinking about it and then I asked my wife to take it and this morning she brought them to work for a barbecue that they are having today. I think I am on the road to recovery this time round. Its still early days and I have to be on my guard.
I dont really know why I'm telling you this. It was like a test.
Boy im glad to be sober and committed to staying that way.
Here's to another sober weekend everyone.
Yesterday evening in a press in our house hidden inside in a sleeping bag I found two bottles of white wine and 3 coronas from my last relapse in february. Typical enough situation my wife had come home to find me conked and hid the booze.
It drove me mental for a while looking at it, at first I said nothing, thinking about it and then I asked my wife to take it and this morning she brought them to work for a barbecue that they are having today. I think I am on the road to recovery this time round. Its still early days and I have to be on my guard.
I dont really know why I'm telling you this. It was like a test.
Boy im glad to be sober and committed to staying that way.
Sober since October
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: In the world in my eyes...Somewhere I've never been before...
Posts: 7,355
Hey, Vinny.
You are telling this because it's important moment of your recovery - some ghosts of the past show up and you faced them and realized they don't belong to your new life.
I am just back from the utilities company and somehow I made a mistake, and underpaid for electricity, and they collected it and gave the overall bill.
I am just p***d off at them and myself. And above all because again I let some $50 mistake make me feel like I am inadequate and worthless, and can't even calculate my electricity bill properly.
You are telling this because it's important moment of your recovery - some ghosts of the past show up and you faced them and realized they don't belong to your new life.
I am just back from the utilities company and somehow I made a mistake, and underpaid for electricity, and they collected it and gave the overall bill.
I am just p***d off at them and myself. And above all because again I let some $50 mistake make me feel like I am inadequate and worthless, and can't even calculate my electricity bill properly.
Weekends are always hardest for me, I’m so used to filling the entire weekend with drinking wine, usually starting on Thursday after trying unsuccessfully to cut down or quit for a few days due to a mega awful hangover every Monday.... I’m so glad I found this thread, thanks D! 😊 I’m on day 32, and now in bed super early (it’s Thursday 7.30pm here) posting on SR. There’s hubby’s beer and wine in the fridge. The beer doesn’t tempt me at all and I’ve hidden the wine out of sight as far in the bottom back of the fridge as possible behind a heap of food so I can’t see it.... I binged on chocolate today, but I didn’t drink and gone to bed to escape temptation
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Ashburn, VA
Posts: 30,196
Everyone has made a mistake on their bills from time to time, MB.
The electric company sees it every day!
I find that once I make an oversight with a bill, I always make a point to remember to do better in subsequent months.
I used to have a big problem making our mortgage payments!
I pay them online. The bank’s old website used to have a four-step process for making the payment. Always I would diligently jump through every hoop to send the payment—but I would sometimes miss a small field in the lower right hand corner that said “Confirm.”
Fortunately, I was able to see online also that no money got withdrawn from the checking account—so I was able to go back, do it over, and hit “confirm.”
The electric company sees it every day!
I find that once I make an oversight with a bill, I always make a point to remember to do better in subsequent months.
I used to have a big problem making our mortgage payments!
I pay them online. The bank’s old website used to have a four-step process for making the payment. Always I would diligently jump through every hoop to send the payment—but I would sometimes miss a small field in the lower right hand corner that said “Confirm.”
Fortunately, I was able to see online also that no money got withdrawn from the checking account—so I was able to go back, do it over, and hit “confirm.”
Sober since October
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: In the world in my eyes...Somewhere I've never been before...
Posts: 7,355
Thank you, Gilmer.
What really upsets me is my reaction to this.
It is like "I will allow myself to feel worthy when I stop making mistakes".
And once I make a mistake a see is as a proof of being "fundamentally flawed" and finish the job with my own hands switching to self-destruction mode.
What really upsets me is my reaction to this.
It is like "I will allow myself to feel worthy when I stop making mistakes".
And once I make a mistake a see is as a proof of being "fundamentally flawed" and finish the job with my own hands switching to self-destruction mode.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Ashburn, VA
Posts: 30,196
MB, I think you have too wide a view of what defines “incompetence” or “unworthiness” in life.
Clerical errors do not disqualify you from overall worth and competence.
Many weaknesses that we have are not worthiness “dealbreakers.”
The problem is that you see every failure, even relatively insignificant ones, as hard evidence that you are bungling life beyond redemption!
Not at all true!
Clerical errors do not disqualify you from overall worth and competence.
Many weaknesses that we have are not worthiness “dealbreakers.”
The problem is that you see every failure, even relatively insignificant ones, as hard evidence that you are bungling life beyond redemption!
Not at all true!
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