FreedomCA

Want to get back into recovery. Drinking is getting out of control again. Going to workout, then go to work and hopefully go to bed early so I can move past Day 1.

comtnman740

Hey there,
Exercise is a huge part of my recovery. I do quite a bit of hiking and camping to keep healthy and sober. What does your plan look like in recovery?
Garrison

least

I'm glad you're choosing sobriety.

Oneday04

One day at a time. You can do it

lessgravity

Good, exercise is the key to so much of life. Sobriety is no exception, in fact I find getting in shape to be an essential part of my sobriety.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back FreedomCA - hope you can stick around with us here on SR. Have you given any thought as to what you might do differently this time around? You had mentioned last time that you were thinking of getting more involved in AA, did you do so?

BDTL

Exercise is my upper fix. I can walk in the feeling a bit out of sync and walk out with a smile on my face. Also finding a support group in your area like AA etc. would help you tremendously. Stay with it and see just how good you can feel!

FreedomCA

My life is in a slump right now. Things are just messy. Even was drinking after AA meetings which is unusual for me. One of my good friends said she has never seen me struggle like this. Going away to rehab would be a good idea but I’m not going to do it because I want to keep my work going after a leave of absence. Been exercising but still gaining weight because of drinking and eating. I will just keep trying and not give up.

BDTL

Have you had a physical lately to include blood work? There may be something else off in your body causing some physical and or mental issues.

FreedomCA

That’s a good idea. I have the blood work slip just need to do it.

Stronger2017

Glad you’re back freedomca. Best of luck in your day one!

FreedomCA

It’s unfortunate. If you choose to drink again, you get addicted to the altered state of feeling and become less interested in the sober state. I am at work now and chose not to drink earlier because I have responsibilities. It’s difficult to get out of the cycle of addiction.

Anna

It's really is difficult to get out of the cycle of addiction. But, once you take that first firm step, it will get easier and you will be on your way. You can do this!

FreedomCA

So far, so good. Chose not to buy alcohol on way home from work. Just had dinner. I can do this.

FreedomCA

So much sad and disappointing stuff is going on in my life right now. I think when I was happy with my life 6-8 years ago getting sober was a lot easier. Now it’s harder because of how sad and difficult my life is. But I’ve realized that alcoholism does not have empathy for my situation and that things will go downhill fast.

Dee74

Welcome back

Something that a lot of the Rational Recoverers say is you can't make your sobriety contigent on being happy content or any of those other things.

It's got to be something that endures - bad times good times and everything in between

have you considered making a recovery action plan?

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)

D

FreedomCA

Right now everything is foggy, and I am just trying to hang in there until I go to bed in the next few hours. I read some of the Big Book and 12 and 12 and took my puppy on a sober walk. I’ve been here before. It seems impossible to not drink the first day but if done, things seem more optimistic. I should probably think about going to bed ASAP.

FreedomCA

I decided to get out my computer and complete a Step 1. It feels really good to get it all out on paper. I wrote down all of the bad things that have happened to me in my life because of out of control drinking. I plan on resuming AA meetings tomorrow and being on the lookout for a sponsor. In the meantime, I know that working the steps helps, and I feel that I need help ASAP, and so I am not going to wait until I have a sponsor to work the steps. If a sponsor eventually wants me to start over with them, that is fine, but I still will work on the steps in my own way as an adjunct therapy. I think I am going to clean up around the house before going to bed, and then tomorrow will hopefully be a brighter day for me. Thank you all for the support in getting me back on track. It was very helpful to come back on this forum.

Delilah1

Welcome back FreedomCA! I am sorry you have sad/disappointing stuff going on, I promise sobriety will make things better. You can do this!

FreedomCA

Yes! Made it to Day 2. Had strong thoughts to drink toward the end of the night but was able to resist. Now in bed struggling to go to bed, which I know won’t be easy for some time.