Starting off on day 2
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Starting off on day 2
Thanks for the words of encouragement from everyone that responded to my post yesterday morning.
Yesterday I completed day 1 of sobriety. It feels rough knowing I threw almost 5 months away, but I've decided not to dwell on that and think of how to move forward knowing I am not a person who can drink.
I choose sobriety because I know it is what works for me and my life. There is no other way for me.
The voice inside my head got bold, and I decided one glass of wine was ok. I had three in under an hour, then spent the following 24 hours drinking anything I could get my hands on. Once I start, it will always be that way for me.
I was at a point in my sobriety where I really did think it was possible. I'm stubborn and wanted to prove I was different. I could go back out and drink responsibly. I. am. not. different. And I am ok with that.
During the time I had built up sober, I learned so much about myself, and it is so exciting to do that. I mean, guys, I like kayaking and I have a bit of a green thumb. You know what I had before sobriety? A trash can filled with empty vodka bottles, a constantly puffy and bloated face, a whirlwind of emotions that made me out of control, and an empty bank account. Now I have hobbies. Real ones!
I refuse to look at this slip up as defeat or as a failure. Instead, I look at it as a stumble in my process to sustained recovery, and I will learn from it.
Here is to day number two, and here is to not getting down about it, but learning from it.
Yesterday I completed day 1 of sobriety. It feels rough knowing I threw almost 5 months away, but I've decided not to dwell on that and think of how to move forward knowing I am not a person who can drink.
I choose sobriety because I know it is what works for me and my life. There is no other way for me.
The voice inside my head got bold, and I decided one glass of wine was ok. I had three in under an hour, then spent the following 24 hours drinking anything I could get my hands on. Once I start, it will always be that way for me.
I was at a point in my sobriety where I really did think it was possible. I'm stubborn and wanted to prove I was different. I could go back out and drink responsibly. I. am. not. different. And I am ok with that.
During the time I had built up sober, I learned so much about myself, and it is so exciting to do that. I mean, guys, I like kayaking and I have a bit of a green thumb. You know what I had before sobriety? A trash can filled with empty vodka bottles, a constantly puffy and bloated face, a whirlwind of emotions that made me out of control, and an empty bank account. Now I have hobbies. Real ones!
I refuse to look at this slip up as defeat or as a failure. Instead, I look at it as a stumble in my process to sustained recovery, and I will learn from it.
Here is to day number two, and here is to not getting down about it, but learning from it.
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That's the spirit!
I was also under the delusion that I could go back to "normal" drinking and as you know, each time we go back things seem to get worse.
So glad your back on top and staying positive. I believe that if you truly learn from a slip up, you can prevent them in the future!
Awesome job
I was also under the delusion that I could go back to "normal" drinking and as you know, each time we go back things seem to get worse.
So glad your back on top and staying positive. I believe that if you truly learn from a slip up, you can prevent them in the future!
Awesome job
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Hi Jack - While I didn't have as long as you, I did have almost 4 months before I threw it all away and relapsed. As you did, I jumped right back in here and now am on Day 26. I understand. I'm glad we both decided there is no other way for us, but sobriety. You're on your way! 
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Originally Posted by JackD89 
Thanks for the words of encouragement from everyone that responded to my post yesterday morning.
Yesterday I completed day 1 of sobriety. It feels rough knowing I threw almost 5 months away, but I've decided not to dwell on that and think of how to move forward knowing I am not a person who can drink.
I choose sobriety because I know it is what works for me and my life. There is no other way for me.
The voice inside my head got bold, and I decided one glass of wine was ok. I had three in under an hour, then spent the following 24 hours drinking anything I could get my hands on. Once I start, it will always be that way for me.
I was at a point in my sobriety where I really did think it was possible. I'm stubborn and wanted to prove I was different. I could go back out and drink responsibly. I. am. not. different. And I am ok with that.
During the time I had built up sober, I learned so much about myself, and it is so exciting to do that. I mean, guys, I like kayaking and I have a bit of a green thumb. You know what I had before sobriety? A trash can filled with empty vodka bottles, a constantly puffy and bloated face, a whirlwind of emotions that made me out of control, and an empty bank account. Now I have hobbies. Real ones!
I refuse to look at this slip up as defeat or as a failure. Instead, I look at it as a stumble in my process to sustained recovery, and I will learn from it.
Here is to day number two, and here is to not getting down about it, but learning from it.
Yesterday I completed day 1 of sobriety. It feels rough knowing I threw almost 5 months away, but I've decided not to dwell on that and think of how to move forward knowing I am not a person who can drink.
I choose sobriety because I know it is what works for me and my life. There is no other way for me.
The voice inside my head got bold, and I decided one glass of wine was ok. I had three in under an hour, then spent the following 24 hours drinking anything I could get my hands on. Once I start, it will always be that way for me.
I was at a point in my sobriety where I really did think it was possible. I'm stubborn and wanted to prove I was different. I could go back out and drink responsibly. I. am. not. different. And I am ok with that.
During the time I had built up sober, I learned so much about myself, and it is so exciting to do that. I mean, guys, I like kayaking and I have a bit of a green thumb. You know what I had before sobriety? A trash can filled with empty vodka bottles, a constantly puffy and bloated face, a whirlwind of emotions that made me out of control, and an empty bank account. Now I have hobbies. Real ones!
I refuse to look at this slip up as defeat or as a failure. Instead, I look at it as a stumble in my process to sustained recovery, and I will learn from it.
Here is to day number two, and here is to not getting down about it, but learning from it.
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