AwkwardKitty

I started a new job a few months ago, and have been confining my drinking to Fridays only - still bingeing but having that false sense of control because it's my one day at the end of the week etc etc

Then the past couple of weeks, I had a drink on Sunday as well (waking up with ridiculous hangovers on a Monday). Then this past week, it was Friday, Sunday and Tuesday. How quickly it creeps up on you and takes hold again.

I don't want to do this again, I don't want to sink further. Time to stop now, before it gets harder. I'm going to post and read here every day to keep on track and motivate myself.

One day at a time xx

Hevyn

Hi AK! Yes, the same exact thing happened to me when I tried to become a social drinker after some sober time. I didn't try to save myself though - I kept going until it was every day. Then all day. Total chaos. I'm glad you see what needs to happen....you can do it!

least

Make this time stick! You can do this!

Amusic

You are blessed with a sense of self awareness, and that is a good thing even though you feel the tug of war with the poison. My bf is an alcoholic and I only wish he had the mentality that you posses. Stay strong and focused. I believe being in control of yourself and not letting the drink control you is the beginning of finding your higher self. I was mostly just a social drinker, but now I feel confident in being able to not care what others think of me when I'm not getting drunk and stoned like all my friends love to do. I can go higher without getting drunk or high.... that seems to be the trick to this whole thing. Best of luck to you always!!!

Anna

Kitty, I think you will find it easier to stop drinking completely than to try to confine it to one day a week. You can do this!

onward17

You can do this AK! We are here for you. One day at a time,indeed

D122y

Awk,

Great post. I am feeling better than ever, aweful, craving, weak, strong, frustrated, tired, happy, sad etc etc. it seems like periodically all the time.

I guess this is life without booze. I remember that all I really cared about...I mean really really cared about was...…

Getting drunk.

I see why some folks want to just turn it all off. Turn off all the madness with booze and drugs.

Since I drank from such a young age, I am having to learn life sober.

It is pretty easy, just move forward...sober.

I have more energy now, so moving forward is easier. I have more time, since I don't waste it drinking or being hungover.

Thanks.

Dee74

I'm glad you're back AK
Yeah the only way it works for me is total abstinence.

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january161992

how are you today AwkwardKitty ?