Day 2
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Day 2
I managed to get through the first day with almost no withdrawals. I was a little hungover this morning but it passed. I spent the day in bed reading posts, now with a clearer mind I'm beginning to remember why I drank so much. I am not sure I will make it in recovery because everything in my life up until now has failed. That and the post traumatic stress of a difficult life.
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welcome to day 2
There are more effective ways to address trauma than drinking.
Originally Posted by Laura3 
I am not sure I will make it in recovery because everything in my life up until now has failed. That and the post traumatic stress of a difficult life.
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Hi Laura. The AV is at work here convincing you that failure is your only option. Rubbish! You can succeed, get well and live a wonderful life. Lots of people have PTSD and dont drink or have been alcoholics and stopped. You need to stay sober and get some help for the PTSD. Help is out there. Now tell the AV to feck off and take back control. Stay close. Wisging you all the best with day 2. Xx
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I've decided attempting to recover would be a waste of time as at this point it would be nearly impossible to accomplish. It would be easier to get a degree or win a marathon than to deal with issues I have never been able to resolve. My new plan is to minimize the negative effects of my anger and addictions
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Nothing is impossible. The only thing that is a waste of time is not trying. If you started jogging today, you may win a marathon a year from now...maybe you won't...but a year is going to pass anyway. Wouldn't you rather at least try?
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Hello Laura3 and welcome to SR.
I have PTSD from a traumatic life and I'm not drinking. Sometimes it really sucks dealing with some of my problems. But I know that my problems would be compounded if I were drinking.
I hope you make it to Day 3.
I have PTSD from a traumatic life and I'm not drinking. Sometimes it really sucks dealing with some of my problems. But I know that my problems would be compounded if I were drinking.
I hope you make it to Day 3.
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Yes one thing I've learned from this is I am fine without drinking. I will start with drinking less, taking days off sometimes. Maybe I will make it to day 3, maybe not. I've already struggled through so many battles I don't have it in me to recover long term.
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Originally Posted by Laura3
I've decided attempting to recover would be a waste of time as at this point it would be nearly impossible to accomplish.
Welcome Laura and I genuinely hope that you decide to give sobriety a good crack of the whip. I think I can safely speak for lots of people here at SR - massive buckets of s**t have been poured over us in the past. And sometimes in the present too. My point is that the s**t will still be there if you continue to mask it with booze. I hope that you find the help that you deserve to move forward instead of ever decreasing circles. SR was an extremely wise choice to make. Love and best wishes, Yix x
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Originally Posted by Laura3
I've decided attempting to recover would be a waste of time as at this point it would be nearly impossible to accomplish. It would be easier to get a degree or win a marathon than to deal with issues I have never been able to resolve. My new plan is to minimize the negative effects of my anger and addictions
Alcoholisms a progressive thing.
I had life long issues to deal with too - one of the reasons I'd never dealt with them was because I drank to escape them.
With a few months sobriety I was amazed at how capable and clear headed I was.
It's not magic - some of my issues still took a long time and hard work to fix - but I never could have done that as a drinker.
Don;t talk yourself out of the game before you've played a match Laura. It'll be ok - the task may seem enormous but we tackle it day by day, just like the rest of our life
just focus on not drinking today
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Welcome to SR Laura. You WILL be able to do this. You aren't going to feel this way forever. Keep forging ahead. One day at a time. The cravings will come in waves, but ride them out. They won't hurt you - a drink will. Hang in there. .
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I know I can do this, I've gone long periods of time without drinking in the past. The doubts are creeping in though, how long will it last and what other self destructive habits will I pick up as a replacement? I've switched addictions many times. Sometimes I would tell myself to keep drinking because it's better than the other things I have done.
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Where are you getting all your "wisdom"?
I think some of your thinking patterns need to be adjusted so you don't get stuck in negative thinking patterns. Stop digging yourself into a hole.
Hope you feel better.
I think some of your thinking patterns need to be adjusted so you don't get stuck in negative thinking patterns. Stop digging yourself into a hole.
Hope you feel better.
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