Day 14: Holding on for dear life
 

Seriously, how can I go from being so completely convinced of the severity of my alcoholism and fully committed to sobriety one minute and the next be talking myself into a drink. Ugh! Wishing i could shut my own thoughts up so i could just get some peace and quiet.

Tell your AV to go to hell (you can use stronger words if needed) It has no power over you!

If it gets bad for me I calm my AV with a promise to drink tomorrow. Just not today.

selfishness self- centeredness! that we think is the root of our troubles

if im trying to help others im thinking less about myself

im less likely to want to change the way i feel

less likely to drink

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Welcome to SR, BeelieveAgain. Very well done on 14 sober days.

Early times can be tricky especially when our AdfictiveVoice chimes in. Ba solid Plan for sobriety (especially one that includes techniques to silence that AV can be very helpful.

I will post s link to a great SR thread on that subject in a moment.

As promised:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...highlight=Psst

Stay with us BeelieveAgain - Reveal those thoughts for what they are - lies :)

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A rouge craving is one thing, that's where HALT, exercise, a nap, a bath, 30 burpees (my go to) work.

But the voice that tells you that you're aren't an alcoholic, the one that says one won't hurt, that's more insidious and sneaky....if you listen. The times when I hear that voice I check in with my acceptance. Have I accepted 100% that I cannot drink and I won't change my mind? Am I listening a bit, negotiating and cutting deals? If so, the voice will continue. Any reservations need to be rooted out. I get that it is for today, and staying sober is a daily job, but I have to shut the voice down pronto. Acknowledge that it is there, but shut it up and don't negotiate. That's what works for me anyway. And thankfully I never hear that voice anymore. And if I were to hear anything that suggested I could actually drink without negative consequences, I would laugh out loud! Because that is the biggest lie ever told.

Hang in there.

I'm about to leave work and this is when that voice comes in my head, telling me it's a good idea to stop by the ahop on my way home. I'm only on day 2 and feeling like crap, som saying no is not a problem. But wait till Thursday, that'll be a different story.

I've learnt that having something to eat before I leave work, nuts or something, is good - otherwise it doesn't matter what mood I am in. I usually feel almost happy after my walk home, or as close as I ever get, but as soon as someone talk to me I get annoyed.

All done with the nuts, wishing everyone a good day full of good choices!