I've paid enough
Feeling somewhat indignant today towards my AV, this addiction and alcohol in general.
Not feeling despondent or regretful or frustrated that I can't enjoy like a normie.
More I'm flipping the finger at this thing that has taken so much from me and not given me almost anything of value in return. Sure yes there were many a wild and fun time that I had, especially when I was young. But those days are so long ago and the paths that I have walked as a man, dragging this beast along with me, giving it some of my best hours, feeding it, making excuses for it, paying for it, protecting it, hiding it - it's enough.
I've paid enough. I'm not paying anymore.
I've paid enough, not paying anymore
- april 2018 -