I want to stop but I can't.
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Something will click, and it will all come together KG. I believe that. I'm firm in the belief that everybody has their own breaking point, and rock bottom. I tried AA. Found it useless. Tried meds, again useless. tried numerous things. what was my rock bottom, and worked for me was quite extreme, but worked. Then the hard work started, and continues every morning until bedtime.
Hang in there
Hang in there
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I know. That's why I have to get it right this time. If it's this bad the third time I drank after relapsing I can't imagine what worse would be. Well, I can actually. I'll be dead.
KG, I'm glad you seem to have gotten past the initial physical feelings, I know those first few days are tough, but you have done this before, and can do it now.
I really found I needed to focus on recovery and having a plan in place. Not drinking today is a good start, what else did you do last time? What supports do you think you might add to help you stay sober for good this time?
I really found I needed to focus on recovery and having a plan in place. Not drinking today is a good start, what else did you do last time? What supports do you think you might add to help you stay sober for good this time?
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Asking for help when I need it. Before I drink instead of after. I isolate and drink and don't let people help me. I feel terrible but mostly just hung over. I am not having withdrawals. That will come tonight. I get the night sweats really bad.
Make sure you take some vitamins and have some Gatorade or other sport drinks which will help you re-balance your electrolytes and stay hydrated. Having a couple of bananas handy can be a good source of potassium and help stop the nausea. If you don't have bananas, a baked potato will help with nausea too.
Consider that perhaps it would be far more accurate to say that getting drunk doesn't just happen. Maintaining an addiction usually takes a lot of planning, and usually a lot of work, as well.
Think it over.
Think it over.
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I don't fear it.. But I do fear that I won't achieve it. That's the scariest thing for me. Is feeling like I'll never get it. And my drinking is escalating. I'm terrified. I mean, really I could have died Friday. I was out walking around in the snow drunk. I could've been hit by a car... like I HAVE to get sober this time. And I can't relapse again because I'm drinking more now than I was before I had 60 days.
The easier, softer way, so to speak.
That is the fundamental inversion that keeps you stuck.
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You can both 'get it' and achieve it as soon as your BAC gets to zero, which shouldn't take too much longer. Remember, it is sustaining your addiction that takes much effort, planning, and hard work. Recovery is easy, by comparison.
The easier, softer way, so to speak.
That is the fundamental inversion that keeps you stuck.
The easier, softer way, so to speak.
That is the fundamental inversion that keeps you stuck.
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I finally got some food in me. Not much, a bowl of chicken noodle soup from Panera. But it's something. I wanted to say thank you to everyone for helping me though this today. I will reread your messages often and make a plan.
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