Can't climb out of this hole
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3 weeks today. Longest I've had since my 51 days back in Jan/Feb. It's very up and down, day to day. But I think overall, I'm stronger. Last time I had a bit of a "pink cloud" going on.
This time I'm banking on "slow and steady wins the race."
Edited to add: out of the 155 days this year so far, I have been sober for more than half of them when I add all my sober days up. VERY VERY happy about that, even if I only have 3 weeks right now
This time I'm banking on "slow and steady wins the race."
Edited to add: out of the 155 days this year so far, I have been sober for more than half of them when I add all my sober days up. VERY VERY happy about that, even if I only have 3 weeks right now
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25 days today. When I'm drinking, I wake up and the first thought in my head is "what the F is wrong with me?" Then there is a whole day of self-loathing and self-hating talk in my head. I do not miss it. Today I chose sobriety.
ProfD, you are an inspiration. I adopted your tactic of averaging. In the 15 months since I joined SR, a little over a half were sober, which pleasantly surprised me. The median came out to be 14-16 as well, another surprise.
I also embraced a strict no carb diet to get into ketosis and burn some of the "love handles" that I personally don't feel the love for. If I gain momentum on an "all in" (no alcohol, no carbs) approach I find it helps me stay the course. And the protein helps stabilize my mood. Given my pain, exercise is currently not an option.
Similarly, I also try to hold onto the idea that just because I feel one way now doesn't mean I will feel that way later. I wake with a lot of anxiety, dread, and jaw pain and I have to remind myself that if I take my meds, in awhile the pain will be less, and if I get up, my perspective will shift.
The pain does lessen after awhile, but with no current job, getting out of bed is like trying to escape the event horizon of a black hole. Every day. If my doggie dog didn't start being restless I'd probably never get up (or out as she gets me outside most days to walk her).
25 days is grand. 13 for me. Look back over your shoulder on the road we're traveling, I'm waving...
I also embraced a strict no carb diet to get into ketosis and burn some of the "love handles" that I personally don't feel the love for. If I gain momentum on an "all in" (no alcohol, no carbs) approach I find it helps me stay the course. And the protein helps stabilize my mood. Given my pain, exercise is currently not an option.
Similarly, I also try to hold onto the idea that just because I feel one way now doesn't mean I will feel that way later. I wake with a lot of anxiety, dread, and jaw pain and I have to remind myself that if I take my meds, in awhile the pain will be less, and if I get up, my perspective will shift.
The pain does lessen after awhile, but with no current job, getting out of bed is like trying to escape the event horizon of a black hole. Every day. If my doggie dog didn't start being restless I'd probably never get up (or out as she gets me outside most days to walk her).
25 days is grand. 13 for me. Look back over your shoulder on the road we're traveling, I'm waving...
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Goodness this is so relatable. Stay strong.
Love keto but in fact I find myself digging intermittent fasting even more these days. Results and mental clarity have been awesome.
Sure, without giving any medical advice, it's a means of fasting within an eating window. So for example, you eat within an 8 hour window, and fast, just don't eat, within the remaining 16 hours. Over time you can reduce the eating window - right now I'm on a 20:4 fasting schedule, eating within an 4 hour window and fasting the remaining 20. Lots of good resources if you Google or check reddit.
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Thank you!! I can go without eating. I don’t know how I programmed myself to do that. Maybe college, working a ton? I haven’t had 3 square meals in decades. Maybe one solid meal a day? What do you drink during the fasting window? Just h20??
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My self-esteem is in the gutter the last couple of days, though I don't know why. I'm doing better than I have in months...and yet I just feel alone and unworthy. A few days ago, I felt really strong and determined but my confidence vanished suddenly. I wish there was a way to sustain positivity. Maybe I'll google some new techniques. Once again, I'm wallowing in the frustration of how hard and taxing staying sober is. It's a full time job.
I hear you ProfD, it’s up and down alright. I had a tough day yesterday. Today is looking a bit brighter. For now. My moods are all over the place. Feeling great one minute and despondent the next. I just keep reminding myself, this too shall pass. It’s a tough road but I keep reminding myself of the damage I’ve been doing for the last 35 years 😳😳😳 my poor body has somehow carried me through it and I owe it to myself to stay sober. I just keep trying to find new healthy ways to “reward” myself....
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