Back at day 1 in the ER
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Join Date: Apr 2018
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Back at day 1 in the ER
Ugh back at day 1. Why why why why is this disease so insidious.
We had a work event taste of the valley with all the food you can eat and drink. So the vodka, the whiskey, all just staring at me. I lost track of how many things I tried. No idea. I remember ubering home, then wanting more alcohol, making him stop and he left me my phone died and I started walking home!!! And hitched a RIDE!!!!
And I woke up feeling like I was going to DIE
Heart pounding out of my chest can’t eveb stand up I’m at the ER, I’m a once a week drinker and I dont know what it’s going to take for me to GET IT. Me and alcohol are cataclysmic. Alcohol is a demon for me.
Need support, I’m feeling like the worst human being ever
We had a work event taste of the valley with all the food you can eat and drink. So the vodka, the whiskey, all just staring at me. I lost track of how many things I tried. No idea. I remember ubering home, then wanting more alcohol, making him stop and he left me my phone died and I started walking home!!! And hitched a RIDE!!!!
And I woke up feeling like I was going to DIE
Heart pounding out of my chest can’t eveb stand up I’m at the ER, I’m a once a week drinker and I dont know what it’s going to take for me to GET IT. Me and alcohol are cataclysmic. Alcohol is a demon for me.
Need support, I’m feeling like the worst human being ever
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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You're not the worst human being ever 
you tried to get along on willpower and no real plan.
I think we've all done that
I had to make changes in my life. I wouldn't be seen at any work event like that if I was new to recovery or struggling or both.
You may say but I had to go - but it doesn't sound that worked out so well for your heath, reputation or desire to be sober.
The other thing I had to do was find support - and use it .
Use it before I drank.
If you want to be sober, it takes some work - but the rewards are immense
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
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you tried to get along on willpower and no real plan.
I think we've all done that
I had to make changes in my life. I wouldn't be seen at any work event like that if I was new to recovery or struggling or both.
You may say but I had to go - but it doesn't sound that worked out so well for your heath, reputation or desire to be sober.
The other thing I had to do was find support - and use it .
Use it before I drank.
If you want to be sober, it takes some work - but the rewards are immense
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)
D
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Addiction is a real thing . . . and that's why willpower, wishful thinking or simply hoping things will change is very unlikely to work.
So get a plan together, execute it, and make Sobriety happen!!
You can do this Angeloflight!!
So get a plan together, execute it, and make Sobriety happen!!
You can do this Angeloflight!!
Brother of the Wolf
Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Walking With Giants
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So, here’s what’s good about where you are: You’re in the hospital, so you can be safely detoxed, and not have to deal with the nightmare of withdrawal. You are in a place that can refer you to an addiction specialist, or an outpatient or inpatient program. And, although it was awful to go through what you went through, you have more evidence that you can’t drink. So now, you can use these three resources to get sober, and start building a solid recovery plan. You can do it! And keep posting! Let us know how you’re doing!
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Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: Georgia
Posts: 11,094
You aren't dead, yet.
On my parents patio, we have an anole that has already had his tail taken off. His new tail is growing on and he(or she) is looking for a mate.
We get wounded and we go on.
On my parents patio, we have an anole that has already had his tail taken off. His new tail is growing on and he(or she) is looking for a mate.
We get wounded and we go on.
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Originally Posted by Forward12 
Tell the docs you want to be transferred into inpatient rehab after the detox.
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Hey, Angel. You certainly aren't the worst person in the world, but I have felt that way about myself at times. I understand; you have a disease which is fatal if not treated.
I'm glad you're at the ER and can detox and get help to beat this demon; I needed lots of help to get and stay sober. Sending you good thoughts and prayers. You can do this and I am very happy you are safe.
I'm glad you're at the ER and can detox and get help to beat this demon; I needed lots of help to get and stay sober. Sending you good thoughts and prayers. You can do this and I am very happy you are safe.
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This too shall pass Angeloflight. I believe in the AA program, a few of the best pieces of advice is we can't do this alone. Ask for help.
One of my AA friends likes to say If I could give someone who relapses often one thing. It would be the gift of time. Time to see what this program and sobriety can do in your life. Take care of yourself angeloflight
One of my AA friends likes to say If I could give someone who relapses often one thing. It would be the gift of time. Time to see what this program and sobriety can do in your life. Take care of yourself angeloflight
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