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Join Date: Apr 2018
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Hi
Thought I’d register as I’m putting myself through needless mental anguish as usual.
I suffer from OCD as well as a bad drinking habit.
As usual after a long day on it I’m scared of what I could’ve done and I’m waiting for the police to knock on my door telling me I’ve committed a crime.
I’m sweating like mad, thing is this always happens and the feeling is awful. But I never learn.
I just want to end it all tbh.
I suffer from OCD as well as a bad drinking habit.
As usual after a long day on it I’m scared of what I could’ve done and I’m waiting for the police to knock on my door telling me I’ve committed a crime.
I’m sweating like mad, thing is this always happens and the feeling is awful. But I never learn.
I just want to end it all tbh.
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Join Date: Dec 2017
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Hi NtS
I hear you
I relate
I don't need to stop I absolutely have to stop, want to stop and realise only I can make that happen!
Mental anguish
Fear of police knocking door
I know that nightmare!
For me I've found a sponsor near my home town I'm doing the steps with him I'm a member of SR in spite of myself and my troubles I still try to encourage and inspire people I'm only in my 2nd day of abstinence
But because I'm taking action I am feeling a little better already.
I'm fighting your corner with you bro!
G
I hear you
I relate
I don't need to stop I absolutely have to stop, want to stop and realise only I can make that happen!
Mental anguish
Fear of police knocking door
I know that nightmare!
For me I've found a sponsor near my home town I'm doing the steps with him I'm a member of SR in spite of myself and my troubles I still try to encourage and inspire people I'm only in my 2nd day of abstinence
But because I'm taking action I am feeling a little better already.
I'm fighting your corner with you bro!
G
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Originally Posted by Frickaflip233 
How are you feeling this morning?
Checked the news and I’ve not eat all day. Punishing myself, this wouldn’t be so sad if I didn’t keep on doing it. Go out, drink, blackout, hide for days, repeat.
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Hi & Welcome~
We all have had that cycle of repeating the drinking pattern . But eventually we have to stop.
My hubby once told me that I was like that little kid who would put their finger in an electric socket, get zapped & still do it again thinking the results would be different. I've gotten zapped soo many times I'm shocked (no pun intended) that I'm still alive.
You are among friends here. I find this my safe place. Best to you.
We all have had that cycle of repeating the drinking pattern . But eventually we have to stop.
My hubby once told me that I was like that little kid who would put their finger in an electric socket, get zapped & still do it again thinking the results would be different. I've gotten zapped soo many times I'm shocked (no pun intended) that I'm still alive.
You are among friends here. I find this my safe place. Best to you.
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well. you have come to the right place to find the support so you never have to feel this way again.
i have been here for two weeks. only two weeks, and everything is full of hope and happiness
just two weeks ago, i was in a similar situation as you...and coming here on a regular basis and reading what others have gone through and how they are working through the demons has provided me the hope, the courage and the tools to make a better life for myself and my loved ones.
crawl out from under the covers. take a hot shower. drink a lot of water. and make a plan.
make us part of that plan and tell yourself that you are worth this change.
i am so thankful i did....just two weeks ago.
you are in the right place
i have been here for two weeks. only two weeks, and everything is full of hope and happiness
just two weeks ago, i was in a similar situation as you...and coming here on a regular basis and reading what others have gone through and how they are working through the demons has provided me the hope, the courage and the tools to make a better life for myself and my loved ones.
crawl out from under the covers. take a hot shower. drink a lot of water. and make a plan.
make us part of that plan and tell yourself that you are worth this change.
i am so thankful i did....just two weeks ago.
you are in the right place
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Originally Posted by 3trees
well. you have come to the right place to find the support so you never have to feel this way again.
i have been here for two weeks. only two weeks, and everything is full of hope and happiness
just two weeks ago, i was in a similar situation as you...and coming here on a regular basis and reading what others have gone through and how they are working through the demons has provided me the hope, the courage and the tools to make a better life for myself and my loved ones.
crawl out from under the covers. take a hot shower. drink a lot of water. and make a plan.
make us part of that plan and tell yourself that you are worth this change.
i am so thankful i did....just two weeks ago.
you are in the right place
i have been here for two weeks. only two weeks, and everything is full of hope and happiness
just two weeks ago, i was in a similar situation as you...and coming here on a regular basis and reading what others have gone through and how they are working through the demons has provided me the hope, the courage and the tools to make a better life for myself and my loved ones.
crawl out from under the covers. take a hot shower. drink a lot of water. and make a plan.
make us part of that plan and tell yourself that you are worth this change.
i am so thankful i did....just two weeks ago.
you are in the right place
I don’t like feeling like this.
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Join Date: Dec 2017
Posts: 342
Apologies when I said bro because you could be female!
Makes no difference to me but sorry if i got it wrong!
I've had to live through and endure my own torture at the hands of my addiction.
Highs, crashing almost unbearable lows.
Demoralisation
Physical
Mental
Emotional anguish.
But I never give up on myself
Never abandon myself.
There is always a way no matter how many times someone falls.
I just keep getting back up because in my heart I know one of these times and it could be this one I will stay up sober and fully embrace a life of recovery.
We have been created with the Authority to overcome any addiction.
We just need help and then to help others!
Best to you
G
Makes no difference to me but sorry if i got it wrong!
I've had to live through and endure my own torture at the hands of my addiction.
Highs, crashing almost unbearable lows.
Demoralisation
Physical
Mental
Emotional anguish.
But I never give up on myself
Never abandon myself.
There is always a way no matter how many times someone falls.
I just keep getting back up because in my heart I know one of these times and it could be this one I will stay up sober and fully embrace a life of recovery.
We have been created with the Authority to overcome any addiction.
We just need help and then to help others!
Best to you
G
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