Hi and welcome back bringmeback
yeah I was caught in a cycle of drinking...feel awful...stop...fell better...drink again.
Posting here daily helped. Its hard to rationalise that you're ok when you have past posts, and the posts of others, to remind you you're not OK.
I also made a lot of changes in my life - changes about what I did for fun, who I hung out with, how I solved problems, how I relaxed, how I dealt with boredom...
I found support and I used it...especially in the tough times when all I wanted was a drink. The support got me through.
It was a lot of work but I really wanted change