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I just came across your posts. I've just ended a five year relationship also that wasn't doing me any favours. Feeling very down about it a month later now, but trying to remember that it is only temporary. I cannot go back. It's braver to go it alone. It was my birthday last week, and I did drink for it because I got so overwhelmed by it all. It did me zero favours. At all. I only know that drink will make things worse and I can't go back. So essentially things should get better. I wish you every success.
Whose hand is turning the vice?
This could only happen for me when I became willing to experience ALL my feelings.
You might want to sit down and have a chat with that hurt. It isn't going anywhere until it has taught you everything you need to know.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
This could only happen for me when I became willing to experience ALL my feelings.
You might want to sit down and have a chat with that hurt. It isn't going anywhere until it has taught you everything you need to know.
Best of Luck on Your Journey.
People are ready to help whenever you are ready to make the effort Stew. I am assuming you are drunk and likely won't be reading or remember much of this thread, but I do hope that you do decide to quit at some point.
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What are you trying to hide/run from? Pain?Regrets? Time to own that stuff and man up! It's your life and obviously you can drink all you want,but don't complain about it. Own it. Whether you're owning and working towards sobriety and a more peaceful life on all fronts,or drinking your life away..own it.
Time to change things up, Stewy, really change things.
Time for some very, very proactive behaviors and endeavors.
AA - believe in a power higher than yourself - in conjunction with working the 12 steps
Inpatient rehab - I know you are against it but your measures so far have failed
Intensive outpatient rehab in conjunction with frequent counseling
Time for some very, very proactive behaviors and endeavors.
AA - believe in a power higher than yourself - in conjunction with working the 12 steps
Inpatient rehab - I know you are against it but your measures so far have failed
Intensive outpatient rehab in conjunction with frequent counseling
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Drink doesn't numb it, it just delays the inevitable of having to deal with it head on.
I lurk a lot but have seen a number of your posts the last week. Good luck on your journey, I hope you find the right recovery programme for you.
I lurk a lot but have seen a number of your posts the last week. Good luck on your journey, I hope you find the right recovery programme for you.
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Hey Stew
I'm sure this has been mentioned in the past but it seems that you believe your break up to be at the center of your drinking. I doubt that is actually the case. I believe you are an alcoholic whose sole coping mechanism is alcohol. The break up is simply another one of life's obstacles for which you are ill equipped to handle.
I believe that until you get very honest with yourself and stop using your break up as a justification for your drinking, you will keep drinking. You are drinking because you have untreated alcoholism. I know I'm being direct Stew but the break up isn't whats going on. The cycle you are caught in is justification.
Stew, EVERYONE goes through awful break ups....and often much worse. And this won't be the last very tough situation you will find yourself in. Developing coping mechanisms for simply adulting through life is a huge part of recovery.
At some point you are going to have to stop using the break up as your reason for drinking. And face the real reason. And get some help. I know heart break big time. I went through a divorce, my second husband died. I mean, the list could go on and on. I have learned that I drank through tough times because, well, I wanted to.
I'm sure this has been mentioned in the past but it seems that you believe your break up to be at the center of your drinking. I doubt that is actually the case. I believe you are an alcoholic whose sole coping mechanism is alcohol. The break up is simply another one of life's obstacles for which you are ill equipped to handle.
I believe that until you get very honest with yourself and stop using your break up as a justification for your drinking, you will keep drinking. You are drinking because you have untreated alcoholism. I know I'm being direct Stew but the break up isn't whats going on. The cycle you are caught in is justification.
Stew, EVERYONE goes through awful break ups....and often much worse. And this won't be the last very tough situation you will find yourself in. Developing coping mechanisms for simply adulting through life is a huge part of recovery.
At some point you are going to have to stop using the break up as your reason for drinking. And face the real reason. And get some help. I know heart break big time. I went through a divorce, my second husband died. I mean, the list could go on and on. I have learned that I drank through tough times because, well, I wanted to.
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I met a guy at caribou coffee this morning, he is in his 6th year of sobriety, I am in my second. We talked about many things but we also talked about a mutual friend of ours who had an alcohol related stroke 100 days ago. He recently was sent home, he sleeps 20 hrs a day, lost all his muscle, and his speech is messed up. Daily alcohol abuse can be a very dangerous game. Wish you the best.
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Hey Stew
I'm sure this has been mentioned in the past but it seems that you believe your break up to be at the center of your drinking. I doubt that is actually the case. I believe you are an alcoholic whose sole coping mechanism is alcohol. The break up is simply another one of life's obstacles for which you are ill equipped to handle.
I believe that until you get very honest with yourself and stop using your break up as a justification for your drinking, you will keep drinking. You are drinking because you have untreated alcoholism. I know I'm being direct Stew but the break up isn't whats going on. The cycle you are caught in is justification.
Stew, EVERYONE goes through awful break ups....and often much worse. And this won't be the last very tough situation you will find yourself in. Developing coping mechanisms for simply adulting through life is a huge part of recovery.
At some point you are going to have to stop using the break up as your reason for drinking.
I'm sure this has been mentioned in the past but it seems that you believe your break up to be at the center of your drinking. I doubt that is actually the case. I believe you are an alcoholic whose sole coping mechanism is alcohol. The break up is simply another one of life's obstacles for which you are ill equipped to handle.
I believe that until you get very honest with yourself and stop using your break up as a justification for your drinking, you will keep drinking. You are drinking because you have untreated alcoholism. I know I'm being direct Stew but the break up isn't whats going on. The cycle you are caught in is justification.
Stew, EVERYONE goes through awful break ups....and often much worse. And this won't be the last very tough situation you will find yourself in. Developing coping mechanisms for simply adulting through life is a huge part of recovery.
At some point you are going to have to stop using the break up as your reason for drinking.
I think Frick totally nailed it: For 5 longs years I used the mother of all breakups as an excuse to keep drinking. Same as you, I drank not because of the breakup, but because I am an alcoholic.
It took me another 30 years to finally see the light - don’t be that guy! I wish you the best of luck!
The drinking is numbing you temporarily, but keeping you from feeling, healing, & moving ahead with your life. You're unable to mend from the breakup as long as you sabotage yourself this way. Please give yourself a chance, Stewy.
My friends and family are a big source of support, they understand it’s been a rough time and I’m going to spend time with them and out of my own head
it seems it doesnt matter what anyone says- if what is said requires action, its no good and has been that way for a very long time,stewy.i dont know what any of us can say any more.
Unless you take action and quit drinking, things are not going to change!
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ined-long.html (AVRT Explained (long))
Some good advice here Stewy.
I really hope you make it out the other side of this.
I've lost good friends here - people I talked to everyday.
One of the hardest posts I ever had to read was from someone gutted that her kids would never know their grandad.
I'm genuinely concerned for you.
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I really hope you make it out the other side of this.
I've lost good friends here - people I talked to everyday.
One of the hardest posts I ever had to read was from someone gutted that her kids would never know their grandad.
I'm genuinely concerned for you.
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