Buckley3

Tomorrow is day 40. Hard for me to even feel like it's been 40.

Today I believe I took my second real step toward recovery. The first, obviously, was making the commitment to not drink 40 days ago.

Tonight I finally stopped thinking about and talking about hitting an AA meeting and did it. The experience is still too fresh for me to describe. And I don't really have a desire to do so anyway. I'm grateful that I just have a desire to go again, with routine, and experience it instead of think about it.

My goal in the coming days is to explore a bit - hit a few different meetings or maybe the same one. But I want to find a sponsor and get to work on the steps in 3d life.

It's been a relief to have had a day that was full and not consumed with me being isolated and left to my own thoughts all day.

That's all I have for now and it's enough.

-B

daredevil

B,

What type of meeting was it (speaker, literature)?
What did you make of it?

Buckley3

It was a 12 step discussion. Topic was step 9. Peeps just shared.

It was at once remarkable and unremarkable. Hard to explain. It's very fresh to me and I'm determined to not judge anything too quickly - I've done plenty of that in my life.

Should be interesting, I'll say that.

-B

rascalwhiteoak

Congrats on 40 days, and wishing you well on your sober journey.