Dipping my toe in the water
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Dipping my toe in the water
......(clearing throat)......ahem....Hi, I'm Beth. I saw the most amazing thing at Easter dinner. One of my guests milked a glass of wine for an hour. AN HOUR!! Now I've seen some impressive things in my life, but that's a feat I cannot fathom. It could have been even more than an hour, I can't be sure because I passed out.
I guess it's time, huh?
I guess it's time, huh?
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hi beth.
i had a very similar experience on easter...so i found this site yesterday. i made a total ass out of myself in front of my family....it is time, and i am scared....but based on all of the feedback i got yesterday, i was lucky to find this site.
i never want to feel that way again...
i had a very similar experience on easter...so i found this site yesterday. i made a total ass out of myself in front of my family....it is time, and i am scared....but based on all of the feedback i got yesterday, i was lucky to find this site.
i never want to feel that way again...
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I'm sick of it. I'm sick of counting the dishes in the sink the next morning to tyr and remember how many people were at my house and who I embarrassed myself in front of.
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just knowing it's here and people are supporting you is a game-changer. i went from a real low yesterday morning to feeling more hopeful last night. there are a lot of resources here it seems. and some members who have been here for a long time. we are here for a reason.
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hah. i am tired of hugging every stranger i meet at a party as if we have been best friends our whole lives.
i am tired of the looks my kids give me when i am over the edge. it is a mixture of sadness, disgust, and worry. but they smile so i don't feel bad.
i want to feel good about myself. this is my only demon. i have conquered the rest....
in fact, i am heading to my psychologist. i am not looking forward to telling her what happened, but she will help me figure out the rest. give me some tools.
i will check back in.
i am glad you are here. you are not alone.
i am tired of the looks my kids give me when i am over the edge. it is a mixture of sadness, disgust, and worry. but they smile so i don't feel bad.
i want to feel good about myself. this is my only demon. i have conquered the rest....
in fact, i am heading to my psychologist. i am not looking forward to telling her what happened, but she will help me figure out the rest. give me some tools.
i will check back in.
i am glad you are here. you are not alone.
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My husband shouldn't have to do all the cleaning up at the end of every night. He deserves better.
I don't know if I'm doing this right. I don't even know the difference between a thread, a blog and a post. I sure as hell can't ask anyone for help with it, if you know what I mean.
I don't know if I'm doing this right. I don't even know the difference between a thread, a blog and a post. I sure as hell can't ask anyone for help with it, if you know what I mean.
Congratulations on taking the first step towards a better, sober life...you're among friends here!
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Hi guys!! Welcome to SR!! I have been on this sight, left, relapsed and now back again. Just wanted to say welcome and explore the sight. The people on here are just like us, been there done it, and endless wisdom to share. I had a couple of months sober and thought I was fine on my own, but didn’t take long for me to realize how wrong I was. Anyway I’m back and the love and support I get here is a huge part of staying sober for me. This is My safe place to admit and deal with my biggest problem. Stay close and stay tuned!
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Welcome to Sober Recovery.
You entitled your post, Dipping my toe in the water. Sounds kind of tentative. Like you'll try sobriety, but if you don't like it, you will go back to drinking?
I had a lot of failed attempts when I couldn't commit to anything beyond "trying it." I succeeded when I "jumped" into the pool of recovery. Jumped in, gave it my all, and put my sobriety above anything else.
You entitled your post, Dipping my toe in the water. Sounds kind of tentative. Like you'll try sobriety, but if you don't like it, you will go back to drinking?
I had a lot of failed attempts when I couldn't commit to anything beyond "trying it." I succeeded when I "jumped" into the pool of recovery. Jumped in, gave it my all, and put my sobriety above anything else.
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl 
Welcome to Sober Recovery.
You entitled your post, Dipping my toe in the water. Sounds kind of tentative. Like you'll try sobriety, but if you don't like it, you will go back to drinking?
I had a lot of failed attempts when I couldn't commit to anything beyond "trying it." I succeeded when I "jumped" into the pool of recovery. Jumped in, gave it my all, and put my sobriety above anything else.
You entitled your post, Dipping my toe in the water. Sounds kind of tentative. Like you'll try sobriety, but if you don't like it, you will go back to drinking?
I had a lot of failed attempts when I couldn't commit to anything beyond "trying it." I succeeded when I "jumped" into the pool of recovery. Jumped in, gave it my all, and put my sobriety above anything else.
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Welcome Beth.
Easter is a great time for a new start. Forgiveness, New Life and all that. It's a time of hope. I know that might sound a little unlikely right at this moment, but there really IS hope. Once we get sober and commit to working on our recovery.
BB
Easter is a great time for a new start. Forgiveness, New Life and all that. It's a time of hope. I know that might sound a little unlikely right at this moment, but there really IS hope. Once we get sober and commit to working on our recovery.
BB
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Originally Posted by BethInBoston
I guess I must really be serious this time.
one thing you will come to find out about the awesome people here:
when it comes to getting sober, guessing about being serious isnt a very good thing. making a commitment to do whatever it takes to get and stay sober? thats a good thing.
along with the doctor, i encourage you to look into the recovery program/plans available. for many of us, just not drinking wasnt enough to keep us sober. many of us had underlying issues alcohol was just a symptom of that needed to be addressed.
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