Misc72

Hey guys I'm posting here first because I'm having that first major overwhelming urge today. I've got 42 days right now. I'm so pissed off that I even want to drink. I'm trying to figure out why? So I'm going to need all the support I can today.

All my needs are met currently. There's no reason except that I just want too. I knew this would happen because it always comes on like this. I keep saying you'll have too much you'll feel like crap tomorrow you'll feel guilty you'll have to start the clock over yada yada yada

Anna

Hi Sunshine!

42 days is great!

I'm sorry you're struggling today. Can you get outside and distract yourself with a walk? If there is something bothering you, you might become aware of it while walking. Basically do whatever you have to do to get past this. And, you will be stronger.

Rainman1

Hang in there Sun, if you stay sober today, tomorrow will be better. Go to a meeting, call a nondrinking freind , do something just to get ur mind off alcohol. It does get better, the cravings and thought of drink will be less and less every day your sober.

Berrybean

My suggestions would be...

1) Check your HALT. (Hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired?) And address any that could be rattling you.

2) play the tape forward. What would happen after that first drink- right through to tomorrow afternoon.

3) reread your past posts

4) respond to / help / encourage 3 newcomers on here

5) get to an AA meeting if possible

BB

WeaverBird

Hey Sunshine, thank you for your post. Those urges that come when everything is ok, or when things are fine, better than ok, really let you see the addiction working, I think.

They are also the saddest ones (in my mind) because I think of everything good I've worked for, and which I will now throw in the garbage can, all in the name of alcohol.

I don't get any desire to drink now. Maybe the AV just withered and died? When I occasionally think about drinking, I get a kindov sicky feeling. So there is an end in sight. Keep going

Misc72

Anna: yes getting out of the house. Haven't left house in 3 days.

Rainman1: Thank you, haven't had a single craving since today! I knew it would creep up on me unexpectedly.

Berrybean: I've got 1 & 2 covered. Will do that on 3. Not AA material but I do have an online program I will sign up for tonight called sexysobriety. I told myself I wouldn't do that until the urge of this magnitude kicked in. So I have that to look forward to tonight!

Weaverbird: EXACTLY! Things are good so it's like WTF? My last drinking was horrid. SIX DAYS of aweful hangover. Thanks for that reminder!~

nova84

It's great you posted 🌞 like everything this will pass and you'll have strengthened those sober muscles even more 💜

JimiC

Sunshine, you quit and became active again on SR for a reason. We never have to experience a hangover again. Have a milkshake, eat a meal, exercise, go to a movie, do something to distract you and fend off the urges. You’re strong and you’ll be soooo happy tomorrow morning.

PalmerSage

If you haven't been out of the house in 3 days, that is the first thing I would do...get out, even for a walk. I tend to get very restless when I'm cooped up, which easily leads to thoughts of drinking if I'm not careful. Have a GREAT meal, listen to a podcast, go onto Goodreads and find a new book. Do anything else but drink.

Hevyn

Hope you're feeling a little better now, sunshine. I'm glad you posted.
I did the same thing a few times in the first months I was sober - it was like I wanted to sabotage myself - but why? Thankfully, those urges left me (mostly) as I got stronger.

Dropsie

Hey,

Good on you for posting.

I love Hip Sobriety -- she is great.

I also think this article is terrific.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4553654/

The fact is, it is just harder the next time. Just the way it is. I will not magically grow 6 inches anymore than being able to drink. Just the way it is...

My motto is Never Quit the Decision.

You got this.

Outonthetiles

Sunshine, get out of the house, change the environment. I sensed you were p.o.ed about something. I think if you focus on a new project, you'll get past this. I understand, I faced YUGE urges at times. It's rough, but you can power past it.
You. Are. a Rock. Star.

Misc72

Man y'all are awesome!! Seriously love SR! Got out downtown Raleigh with the hubs. Ate at my favorite place. Asked if they had Ginger beer and after waitress dug around their basement WaaLAh! Ginger beer with lime an excellent meal and the best blackberry cobler I've ever had. Then a stop at my favorite coffee shop!! Urge gone completely! Like magic! Poof gone! This was a close call. It's very scary when these sneek attacks happen. Love you all!!!

JimiC

Well done Sunshine

CreativeThinker

Congrats on moving past the urge Sunshine. Every time I was able to move past cravings, the stronger I became. Glad you're feeling better now and you are in control!

CT

Dee74

I'm glad you feel better Sunshine

D

Misc72

Just had a lovely walk around my neighborhood... All the spring blossoms are coming up, the smells, the colors of spring, the nice crisp air, blue sky, pure serenity... I really needed that... xoxoxo GREAT IDEA!

For those struggling take the advice here on SR. It works if you work it.

SimplyFree

Awesome to hear you are staying strong Sunshine. It’s an encouragement to us all.

yinzer

That’s awesome, sunshine!

tiffanyeagle

Thank you.
You've helped me on my post about my recent detox and you've helped me today by posting about your urge and taking a walk, etc. i'm going to keep posting like you did. thank you!