Stew1984

I was right about the Saturday bender being the perfect catalyst to this effort.

I’m not going back over old ground. I’m doing this now. I want to be sober more than I want to drink.

Time to process the breakup and get into healing

Today I’m back at work, in a novel situation given I’ve been hungover on most working days the last year so I need to go steady and stay calm

I’ll post again later, I’m not going to scurry off for cans and then post to say how bad my life is when I’m drunk. Better to face it head on and I’m lifes terms

Going to stop looking my ex up online. It’s just turning a knife in unnecessarily

Dee74

That all sounds good Stewy- new start, new behaviours

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thankful61

I just past 7 days, I was a mess. There's knowing the right thing to do, and doing the right thing. Good for you!

Stew1984

Midway through work so far so good. Got my water bottle with me. Booze just masked all this pain in the put of my stomach from the breakup. So I’m getting a significant helping of the pain now- best to feel it than block it out with filthy poison rotting my insides

DontRemember

I wouldn't even say it blocks the pain out. For me it merely 'paused' the pain. Glad you're feeling some better.

Stephan2018

Another day... fantastic! Hang in there. You can absolutely do this!

Stew1984

I’m going to do this. I’m into day 2. I’m taking the power back it’s band practice tonight and no beers on the way home

SoberLeigh

What a fantastic post, Stewy.

Time to live your life and make it beautiful.

Onward, together.

SoberLeigh

It is okay to feel, Stewy. Sit with your feelings and emotions and breathe - practice deep breathing. You may even want to look into meditation.

This time will soon be behind you.

Stay close and keep talking with us when and as often as you need.

Polished

Hi Stew. Just wanted to say congrats for getting back on the wagon and I’m pleased you’ve had a sober day. I too am going through a really painful breakup - I’ve been doing a lot of looking him up online etc to see what he’s up to, as you mentioned you were doing, so you have my total sympathy. I drank yesterday after my four days sober but I’m refocusing now. Alcohol certainly doesn’t make the pain of a breakup go away! It just amplifies it.

Hoping you have a good day tomorrow

Stew1984

Just at practice at the minute. Booze destroyed my relationship. I’m feeling like I’m missing my ex, someone please send me some posts from my old account mentioning when I was with my ex and remind me this is not worth drinking over

SoberLeigh

It is not worth drinking over, Stewy, not worth one single drop.

There is a better and healthier relationship out there for you, Stewy. Sobriety and recovery will help you find it. I swear.

RVer

Good on ya Stew!

DontRemember

Can't send you the exact post(s),but it wasn't a healthy relationship. Even without the booze involved..I remember that because I related to it.

Edit: Not to mention..it really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of your sobriety. Just know drinking at 'it' whatever 'it' is never solves anything. I was thinking this morning about the saying "Nothing a drink can't fix." How stupid is that? There's all sorts of ways to actually 'fix it' if you focus on it. Drinking removes the focus,thus temporarily removing(pausing) the problem. It doesn't fix sh*t!

Hevyn

So happy to read of your new beginning & new attitude, Stewy.

AnvilheadII

hint - NOTHING is worth drinking over. not our past, not our present, not our future.

tomsteve

i would, but a couple parts of recovery are:
responsibility
accountability
action


you are quite capable of looking up your past posts,stewy. im not going to do for you what you can do for yourself.

now, go look them up,dude!

Stew1984

Thanks guys. I’m in bed sober. Another day closer to feeling better and further away from that misery.

Good night everyone

SoberLeigh

Well done, Stewy, well done.

Anna

Good job, Stewy!