chowchow

I hated that expression when I first went to AA but it turns out to be pretty true. I think this time of the MANY times I tried to get sober is different and I am taking it one day at a time. I don't want to drink again. It was so awful and miserable the last time I drank. I think I woke up drunk when I woke up the morning after I drink.

I do still think about drinking. I am only about 2 months in. Put I really am still desperate enough to take any measure not to. And my ass hasn't fallen off yet (but it is bigger because I am letting myself eat more than I normally would).

Dee74

Keep up the good work chowchow

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daredevil

I think desperation *can* be a gift. I wouldn't always say it necessarily is. If it was, I'd probably be looking to return it to sender.