Relapse - tough year - advice and hope
I figure I have been an alcoholic for 12 years. First few years, I didn't realize that I was that bad. No one said anything. But then the blackouts started and it was obvious. It took a long time to become a blackout drinker but now after a sober period, I am drinking to blackout straight away. Last relapse I have very little memory for an entire year. Whole months I can't remember any details.
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1 year ago, There is hope, 7+ mos sober, so grateful
Thank you for listening... I celebrated 6 years sober on December 27, 2016. And thought to myself, maybe I’ve outgrown my struggles and why I used alcohol previously. So I began to drink that January 2017. Throughout these last 15 mos, I’ve tried off and on. To no avail. The longest I’ve stayed sober is about 60 days, 3 times. I relapsed this last time a week ago. It was absolute hell, at work, no one knew, but I am so ashamed and I’m telling you. I have been sober a week now. Struggling with anxiety and depression. Want to drink... but going to meetings. I am looking for inspiration and hope that I can do this again and this feeling gets better and Hope that I am capable. Feel so alone and this is my truly the last time I can call on friends to help me. Any advice to stay the course and ways you made it through these days and felt the same. For some reason at 60 days my mind rethinks itself. I want more time sober again. And anyone thinking of trying again, don’t do it, it’s true. It only gets worse and you go right back to your original drinking place. Thank you again, Anything you say will help.
Hi SurvivorK. I am 10+ years sober. I want to thank you for helping me. Those of us with a good bit of time under our belts have a tendency to get a little ego going. "Look at me- 7 years, 8 years now 10 years sober". That little voice starts to creep in- "I can have a drink, just 1 drink, look how great I've done" Whether you are 10 years, 10 months, 10 days or 10 hours sober- we are all the same. We can't drink. Not 1, Not ever. I just wanted to say thank you. And, say, you CAN do this, 1 day, 1 hour, 1 min or even 1 second at a time. Good luck.
I celebrated 6 years sober on December 27, 2016. And thought to myself, maybe I’ve outgrown my struggles and why I used alcohol previously. So I began to drink that January 2017. Throughout these last 15 mos, I’ve tried off and on. To no avail.
Sounds like my story, only the numbers are different.
I was sober 5 1/2 years and thought it would be ok to have a beer in a restaurant with my nice steak dinner. Soon it was off to the races, and I was quickly back to where I had been. It took me a year of "on again, off again" drinking to get sober. I would make it a couple of weeks then end up on a 3 day bender.
What finally worked for me was giving up and going to AA and finding this website and logging on every day. I joined one of the monthly sobriety classes here, which was also very helpful.
I'm coming up on 9 years sober next month. If I can do it, so can you!
Sounds like my story, only the numbers are different.
I was sober 5 1/2 years and thought it would be ok to have a beer in a restaurant with my nice steak dinner. Soon it was off to the races, and I was quickly back to where I had been. It took me a year of "on again, off again" drinking to get sober. I would make it a couple of weeks then end up on a 3 day bender.
What finally worked for me was giving up and going to AA and finding this website and logging on every day. I joined one of the monthly sobriety classes here, which was also very helpful.
I'm coming up on 9 years sober next month. If I can do it, so can you!
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Join Date: Mar 2018
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Great story of recovery
I celebrated 6 years sober on December 27, 2016. And thought to myself, maybe I’ve outgrown my struggles and why I used alcohol previously. So I began to drink that January 2017. Throughout these last 15 mos, I’ve tried off and on. To no avail.
Sounds like my story, only the numbers are different.
I was sober 5 1/2 years and thought it would be ok to have a beer in a restaurant with my nice steak dinner. Soon it was off to the races, and I was quickly back to where I had been. It took me a year of "on again, off again" drinking to get sober. I would make it a couple of weeks then end up on a 3 day bender.
I'm coming up on 9 years sober next month. If I can do it, so can you!
Sounds like my story, only the numbers are different.
I was sober 5 1/2 years and thought it would be ok to have a beer in a restaurant with my nice steak dinner. Soon it was off to the races, and I was quickly back to where I had been. It took me a year of "on again, off again" drinking to get sober. I would make it a couple of weeks then end up on a 3 day bender.
I'm coming up on 9 years sober next month. If I can do it, so can you!
I am so happy you have that much time sober, amazing, I hope to get years under my belt like before, one day at a time. And I am getting there. Feeling so much better.
There has been mention of sponsoring someone but that's just not for me, I am okay going to AA, but I cannot immerse myself in it for some reason, not my gig, but I do love the ladies from AA, I enjoy surrounding myself with good people of all kind, I talk to my husband, my kids, my family members, my friends, I help people who are suffering and need to talk, I try to be there for people, while being honest with myself. Maybe some day, just not now. I'm doing what works for me , and so far I'm feeling good. I'm grateful. I'm honest. And those who sponsor, you are amazing. Proud that you have that gift. Maybe I will to someday.
Blessings to you all.
What finally worked for me was giving up and going to AA and finding this website and logging on every day. I joined one of the monthly sobriety classes here, which was also very helpful.
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