joshlyman

Yesterday my family and I made the descision that we will put our 16 year old dog to sleep. She is mentally unwell and not at all happy. I immediately drank.

It was an incredibly stupid thing to do. All day I’ve had to deal with post blackout anxiety, depression, regret, humiliation on top of the sadness over my dog. I really tied one on last night-said a lot of stupid things, said a lot of things I don’t remember. Offended people.

This situation made me realize I am not prepared for any unexpected triggers that life throws at me. Any advice? I did not drink today and I will not drink tomorrow.

Dee74

I'm sorry for your loss josh.

The only advice I can give is...plan for the unexpected.

The AV is absolutely without scruples - It can take a tragedy like the loss of a family pet and turn it into an occasion for drinking.

Back in the day, I did it too, and I'm really sorry I did because it solved nothing, made me feel worse and my pet deserved better from me.

I try and keep times like that in my head for easy recall - it saved me a few times when I was trying to get this sober thing down.

I'm always talking about plans - a basic plan can be as simple as promising yourself to post here before you drink - and not just post and run - really ask for help and really wait for help to be delivered.

will it be hard not to drink? absolutely?

will not drinking be worth it? again - absolutely

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Mags1

Sorry for the loss of your dog Josh.

It’s easy to turn to drink and our av will make all the excuses for you.

Try to play the tape forward to the end. And as Dee says, come here and say how you feel before you pick up.

Arpeggioh

Josh -- I'm so sorry this happened, and glad to read your post, and Dee's response. My sole companion is my 16 year old dog, so I've been mentally preparing myself for what you're going through right now. Thank you for sharing, and showing strength to come here for support. You've helped me get ready.

D122y

Josh,

When my mom was dieing of cancer I went to visit.

My Dad called and said...it was time.

My sister picked me up at the airport, I asked her to bring a bottle of tequila.

I drank half by the time I got to the hospital.

So, I was wasted and reeked seeing my whole family. It was pathetic.

Never again.

My cravings are a joke these days. it has gotter so much better.

Wanting to quit was half the battle won. Now I am educated. Now I must suffer.

It has gotten better by the moment.

Thanks.

JayTee33

I'm so sorry for your loss. Good for you for coming here and posting for accountability, and best of luck resuming your recovery journey!

Outonthetiles

Very sorry

Nonsensical

Been there, done that- although I waited until I picked up the ashes from the crematorium. Set the box of ash on the passenger seat, drove straight to the bottle store, and dove in.

The thought that I wasn't being the person my dog always thought I was added to my sense of shame.

regroup and recover. It's a new day. Make it a better one!

You can do this!

Rar

I'm so sorry for the loss of your dog, Josh. Sending cyber hugs. ((Josh))

JJ991

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I can only repeat what others have said, come on here first.

We had our old cat put to sleep 6 weeks ago, I was so upset. The best thing I did was post here about the cancer diagnosis then about getting her put to sleep. The support on here was amazing.

Take care

anxiousrock

So sorry for your loss, you must be devastated.
I hope you can get back on track and stay sober.

thomas11

sorry to hear about your dog, that's a tough decision. How long had you been sober? It sounds like drinking did just what it always does.....complicated things more than they needed to be. I hope you can get past your recent relapse and move forward.