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It was like you are in mu head.
Being in social situations with alcohol is easy. My drinking and drugging was mostly a solitary affair, and mostly in secret. I described the extent of my drinking to friends that i socialize with, and their response was "You were always the responsible one. How did we not know this?"
I got very sick of recovery after inpatient, outpatient, 12 Step (AA and CA), SMART, psych meds, and psychotherapy.
I was honestly just done about 2 weeks in. The rest was just insurance.
I have lost 40 pounds, keto, bodybuilding, learning motorcycling, changing careers. Rediscovered dating and sex. I got sober to live life, not to go back again and again to meetings and such.
I'm done. My main means of sobriety is not using. Its just off the table. Period.
You arent that far in. It gets easier and life gets better, and you wont miss your DOC(s).
Good job on the wedding. Sounds like you're at the "So this is sobrity. Is this as good as it gets?"
It isn't. It gets way better.
Being in social situations with alcohol is easy. My drinking and drugging was mostly a solitary affair, and mostly in secret. I described the extent of my drinking to friends that i socialize with, and their response was "You were always the responsible one. How did we not know this?"
I got very sick of recovery after inpatient, outpatient, 12 Step (AA and CA), SMART, psych meds, and psychotherapy.
I was honestly just done about 2 weeks in. The rest was just insurance.
I have lost 40 pounds, keto, bodybuilding, learning motorcycling, changing careers. Rediscovered dating and sex. I got sober to live life, not to go back again and again to meetings and such.
I'm done. My main means of sobriety is not using. Its just off the table. Period.
You arent that far in. It gets easier and life gets better, and you wont miss your DOC(s).
Good job on the wedding. Sounds like you're at the "So this is sobrity. Is this as good as it gets?"
It isn't. It gets way better.
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It gets better, less 
We all have bad days - alcoholics or not. I think there's a danger to look at bad days as some sort of sign we're failing in recovery. We're not.
The good thing now is my bad days are just that - bad days - not weeks months or years
As a alcoholic, I definitely identify with the post success come down tho - you successfully negotiate a tricky weekend...and now what?
Staying sober was one thing - but staying sober and being happy was another.
I drank for a lot of reasons - and not all of those reasons cleared up the moment I took my last drink.
It took a little work time and patience but eventually I found a happiness, and serenity, that sustains me - even thorough the bad days I and we all have
D
We all have bad days - alcoholics or not. I think there's a danger to look at bad days as some sort of sign we're failing in recovery. We're not.
The good thing now is my bad days are just that - bad days - not weeks months or years
As a alcoholic, I definitely identify with the post success come down tho - you successfully negotiate a tricky weekend...and now what?
Staying sober was one thing - but staying sober and being happy was another.
I drank for a lot of reasons - and not all of those reasons cleared up the moment I took my last drink.
It took a little work time and patience but eventually I found a happiness, and serenity, that sustains me - even thorough the bad days I and we all have
D
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Originally Posted by MindfulMan 
It was like you are in mu head.
Being in social situations with alcohol is easy. My drinking and drugging was mostly a solitary affair, and mostly in secret. I described the extent of my drinking to friends that i socialize with, and their response was "You were always the responsible one. How did we not know this?"
I got very sick of recovery after inpatient, outpatient, 12 Step (AA and CA), SMART, psych meds, and psychotherapy.
I was honestly just done about 2 weeks in. The rest was just insurance.
I have lost 40 pounds, keto, bodybuilding, learning motorcycling, changing careers. Rediscovered dating and sex. I got sober to live life, not to go back again and again to meetings and such.
I'm done. My main means of sobriety is not using. Its just off the table. Period.
You arent that far in. It gets easier and life gets better, and you wont miss your DOC(s).
Good job on the wedding. Sounds like you're at the "So this is sobrity. Is this as good as it gets?"
It isn't. It gets way better.
Being in social situations with alcohol is easy. My drinking and drugging was mostly a solitary affair, and mostly in secret. I described the extent of my drinking to friends that i socialize with, and their response was "You were always the responsible one. How did we not know this?"
I got very sick of recovery after inpatient, outpatient, 12 Step (AA and CA), SMART, psych meds, and psychotherapy.
I was honestly just done about 2 weeks in. The rest was just insurance.
I have lost 40 pounds, keto, bodybuilding, learning motorcycling, changing careers. Rediscovered dating and sex. I got sober to live life, not to go back again and again to meetings and such.
I'm done. My main means of sobriety is not using. Its just off the table. Period.
You arent that far in. It gets easier and life gets better, and you wont miss your DOC(s).
Good job on the wedding. Sounds like you're at the "So this is sobrity. Is this as good as it gets?"
It isn't. It gets way better.
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