Returning following more problems
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Join Date: May 2015
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Returning following more problems
I'm trying to get things back together after more problems. I'm four days sober now after going crazy on Friday night. I stayed out all night and my family got really worried. Somehow I wasted about $500 and I ended up feeling horrible all weekend and I'm now really worried about my finances and my relationships. I've had support before and I did improve but recently I've been getting into a cycle of problems and it seems to be getting worse so I've decided to reach out on this forum again. At the moment, my main emotion is guilt.
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Thanks for your support. Although I sometimes have frustrations and misgivings about AA, I realise that there are a lot of things I can draw inspiration from. For example, it helps to recognise that resentments are dangerous. I have a resentment about a small thing to do with work which I was in danger of exaggerating but going to an AA meeting last night helped me to put it into context. I've started doing my morning prayer and journal again.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
Location: Florida., USA
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Welcome back Learning. I'm a returning member also. I don't remember if I had a plan before my other relapses, but if I did, it was weak and ineffective. I think I relied solely on white knuckling. This time, I believe I have a stronger plan, even a few of them, which I have to tweak from time to time. Reading and posting daily on SR is a major part of my plan. Hang in there!
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Join Date: Feb 2018
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Welcome back, and best of luck developing your recovery plan. I'm not sure how many options there are in the UK but here in Canada/the US there are lots of other recovery group options out there. I'm attending Smart Recovery meetings, and I'm finding them very helpful. Wishing you all the best on your journey to recovery.
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Thanks for your support everyone. I have a week sober now and I am feeling much calmer and happier. I am drawing a lot of inspiration from the AA books and I reached out to some of my friends in the fellowship and they have been very supportive.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
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So, so glad you found your way back.
Many of us fell for our AV lies that told us that after a period of sobriety we had kinda reset ourselves and could drink 'normally'. I did that a few times (just before I found this place). And each time I returned to drinking it was slightly more chaotic than the last time.
Why not pop the shame and guilt and self-loathing to one side. These things don't serve us well. They re negative feelings and ammunition for our addiction. Better to use that energy for working on our recovery.
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Many of us fell for our AV lies that told us that after a period of sobriety we had kinda reset ourselves and could drink 'normally'. I did that a few times (just before I found this place). And each time I returned to drinking it was slightly more chaotic than the last time.
Why not pop the shame and guilt and self-loathing to one side. These things don't serve us well. They re negative feelings and ammunition for our addiction. Better to use that energy for working on our recovery.
BB
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