Day 27 and I think I have finally
Day 27 and I think I have finally
Accepted the fact I can't drink, I was thinking about this last night, and before I was always saying why me, others can drink etc etc basically self pity, now I am thinking more that as long as I have peace of mind and myself and family are happy and healthy that's all that matters to me, instead of fighting it, I am starting to embrace the change, I know I will have tough times in my life, but that's life, as long as I stay sober I can deal with obstacles in a rational way, have a great day/weekend everyone and stay strong
Mum,
My lack of education about booze helped me to periodically drink daily, day drink, and start and stop hundreds of times.
I needed some medical issues to shake me up enough to quit past a week or so.
Once I hit 90 days clean or so, I became impatient that I was still feeling off kilter.
I am now nearly 1000 days clean and sometimes I feel great, others I am off kilter.
I call it my PAWS. The brain damage is deap. It is real. If I get drunk again, I will suffer again.
I will never fully recover from my addiction. It is a chronic condition.
SR has save me from relapse over and over. Reading here keeps the fading memories of why I quit alive.
I pray eventually I will rewire enough that I won't crave any more. Until then, I will take my crave suffering as a reminder that I am a little jacked up from my drunkard ways.
It is my life now.
I don't envy drinkers. Drinking is an addiction for way more people than advertised. If a person routinely consumes 14 units a week, plus periodic binge, they are addicted for life. That level of drinking will expedite their demise.
The world according to D122y.
Thanks.
My lack of education about booze helped me to periodically drink daily, day drink, and start and stop hundreds of times.
I needed some medical issues to shake me up enough to quit past a week or so.
Once I hit 90 days clean or so, I became impatient that I was still feeling off kilter.
I am now nearly 1000 days clean and sometimes I feel great, others I am off kilter.
I call it my PAWS. The brain damage is deap. It is real. If I get drunk again, I will suffer again.
I will never fully recover from my addiction. It is a chronic condition.
SR has save me from relapse over and over. Reading here keeps the fading memories of why I quit alive.
I pray eventually I will rewire enough that I won't crave any more. Until then, I will take my crave suffering as a reminder that I am a little jacked up from my drunkard ways.
It is my life now.
I don't envy drinkers. Drinking is an addiction for way more people than advertised. If a person routinely consumes 14 units a week, plus periodic binge, they are addicted for life. That level of drinking will expedite their demise.
The world according to D122y.
Thanks.
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