Some of us use AA meetings to stay sober.
Some of us see a counselor to help us stay sober.
Some of us read and post here every day to stay sober.
Most of us got started by saying "I can't do this anymore," and really meant it.
Tell your husband you really don't want to drink anymore, and ask if he could help you with that. If he won't, then come here and post about it. Nobody here will call you names, and nobody here will tell you that drinking is a good idea!
"I finally decided I wanted to be sober more
than I wanted to drink." -- Very wise member here who I quote constantly and can't remember her name...