Day 7
Day 7
I know its early, but thinking how much i would enjoy wine tonight. Has me wondering where that impulse is coming from. ⚡ boredom. Yep, I drank at night, alone. Bored, lazy, stalling on my chores...I think somewhere I knew, but not consciously. Plus, once I drank I had the perfect excuse not to leave the house, couldn't drive...introspection is tough, but I think it s part of the process. Sharing helps, I appreciate the words of encouragement and the me to's. Makes this less lonely. THANK YOU!!
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I cannot drink, no matter what. So when I have random, meandering thoughts of drinking I shut them down, stat. I don't ponder or negotiate. I don't drink, no matter what and I won't change my mind. I am quite sure this mantra changes my brain over time. In the same way that 'well, maybe, what if, that might be fun'....eventually leads me to drinking.
I cannot drink, no matter what. So when I have random, meandering thoughts of drinking I shut them down, stat. I don't ponder or negotiate. I don't drink, no matter what and I won't change my mind. I am quite sure this mantra changes my brain over time. In the same way that 'well, maybe, what if, that might be fun'....eventually leads me to drinking.
There is no reason/excuse/justification/rationalizing the desire for a drink.
Why even go down that path in my mind and thoughts? I don't engage those thoughts. I don't engage other random destructive thoughts either - like punching that guy in the nose who irritates me, or stealing that purse left unattended in the shopping cart with a wallet peeking out. Why would I start planning how to hide that purse? That just doesn't serve me and isn't something I'd do. Just like I don't invite drinking thoughts to come in, sit down and get comfortable.
actually was wrestling with that tonight...skipped groceries to avoid the wine (that they seem to put everywhere in the store these days) because I wasn't feeling as strong as I would like
Couldn't have said it better. Wouldn't want to even try. Well, except I'd say, "I don't drink." The "cannot" term is problematic to me, because I know I "can."
There is no reason/excuse/justification/rationalizing the desire for a drink.
Why even go down that path in my mind and thoughts? I don't engage those thoughts. I don't engage other random destructive thoughts either - like punching that guy in the nose who irritates me, or stealing that purse left unattended in the shopping cart with a wallet peeking out. Why would I start planning how to hide that purse? That just doesn't serve me and isn't something I'd do. Just like I don't invite drinking thoughts to come in, sit down and get comfortable.
There is no reason/excuse/justification/rationalizing the desire for a drink.
Why even go down that path in my mind and thoughts? I don't engage those thoughts. I don't engage other random destructive thoughts either - like punching that guy in the nose who irritates me, or stealing that purse left unattended in the shopping cart with a wallet peeking out. Why would I start planning how to hide that purse? That just doesn't serve me and isn't something I'd do. Just like I don't invite drinking thoughts to come in, sit down and get comfortable.
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