New here - scared, but resolved
 

Hi there,

My name is Jay, it’s a pleasure to meet you all. I’m five days sober today.

Looking back, I’ve probably recognized that I have a problem with alcohol for more than a decade. It’s gotten much worse over the last few years - a vicious cycle of worsening anxiety, and drinking to try to quell that anxiety (great plan, I know!). Last week, I hit what I think was my rock bottom. I won’t go into too many details now, but my actions hurt my family emotionally, and could have hurt them in much worse ways. I was so lucky.

I woke up the next day with what felt like unsurmountable shame and guilt. But at the same time, I woke up with a resolve that I’ve never felt before to stop this. I’ve been reading non-stop, learning how to put the tools in place that I need to for this journey. I’m going to my first meeting on Thursday.

This forum has already been amazingly valuable to me, and I hope to continue to seek support and guidance here. I know I’ll have hundreds of questions as I start to put one foot in front of the other towards recovery.

Pleased to meet you all. I look forward to getting to know you better.

Take care,

Jay

Hi Jay, welcome to SR :)
Lots of people (myself included) who have been in your situation and can resonate with the guilt and shame that alcohol brings.
Congrats on 5 days, may you get another 5 and then another and then another etc etc etc :)

Hey bud. Welcome!

I too had an incident recently. I've gone into great detail on it - not without wondering how wise that is with internet predators/ trolls and all - so I appreciate and respect totally your choice to spare the details.

Let's do this man. You aren't alone.

Thanks for your welcome, I really appreciate it. It really helps to talk to people who understand and who are in it together.

Welcome JT33!!!

Congrats on 5 days. That's awesome! :You_Rock_

Thanks Nonsensical!

Welcome to SR!

This place, along with AA, got me sober after a couple of decades of trying to fix things by myself.

Welcome to the posting side of things JayTee :)

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Thanks Dee, much appreciated!

Welcome, Jay ! So glad you're here.

Welcome to SR Jay:c007:

Welcome to SR Jat. Five days is great! I’ve found this site has been really helpful for getting sober.