mandypandy

A lot of people, including me, HAVE been at that stage.
I have had visual hallucinations many times when I have stopped drinking.
Sometimes, when the physical withdrawals were especially bad, I took myself off to (or was taken) to A&E and they sorted me out.

Otherwise you could prepare for detox by asking your doctor for help.

Drinking more, will not take this problem away, just postpone it.

Infact, drink is a cure for nothing, as I have known people who have gotten to the stage where they are having hallucinations while drinking. You are NOT at the end of what horror drink can bring you. It has a lot more tricks up it's sleeve.
And it is NOT too late to save yourself.

If you can endure the nasty, nasty stuff drink brings you, you are more than capable of having what it takes to kick the stuff to the curb.

take care

MrsLamp

Wow thanks for all the encouragement SR people, I know you are all completely right, seeing the replies this morning has given me the strength to not give up. today is a new day. 8pm meeting tonight , tired or not. If I am there I cant go to shop. Once again no drink in house, I am spending money I cant afford on that poison to throw it down sink as I didn't drink it all. Absolute madness! xx

Nonsensical

If you're like me, that last hour before I decided to get to the shop right before closing was not much fun. Silent battle raging in my head.

You need to get down there and get some drink.
No, I can't I HAVE TO STOP
Stop tomorrow.Just one more night.
No!
Yes. Listen. You'll feel better if you do this. Get the drinks.
No, I can't. I don't want to. I'll feel horrible tomorrow.
That's OK, we can quit tomorrow. You just need to get down to that shop now, before they close!

And on and on and on.

Guess who is also telling you you're beyond hope?
The same liar that told you you need the drinks.
You're not beyond hope. In fact, you're right on the verge of a breakthrough.

You can do this!

Rar

Good decision Mrs. Lamp. So glad you've decided to stay with us. One day at a time. Stay close to SR. Don't forget to post when a crave pops up. Read, read, read! Let us know how the meeting goes. Hang in there. Rooting for you.

aasharon90

There is an AA central office located in
every local area with trusted servants
attending the phones around the clock
to answer and help many who are struggling
with addiction and need help.

They will always be there to listen
and talk to you so you can avoid picking
up a drink and guiding you to a meeting.

We all went to any lengths to get
our poison no matter what time,
no matter what the weather was
like, situation, circumstance, just
as long we got that fix. Now it will
take going to any lengths to remain
sober which is called, footwork.

Do the footwork to stop the insanity
that comes with addiction to achieve
health, happiness and honesty in our
life building a strong solid recovery
foundation to live your life upon for
yrs to come.

One small step after another.

Opivotal

I'm thrilled you decided to start today anew, MrsLamp!

We're supporting you one hundred percent. Please keep posting and letting us know how it's going.

You can do this!

SoberLeigh

So glad that you are still with us, MrsLamp.

Stay close.

We are here for you.

VikingGF

Good news, MrsLamp!!

I'm glad you are going to your meeting tonight.

MrsLamp

Went to meeting, overwhelmed, tired, thank you so much everyone for support but I felt very unwell towards the end of proceedings and just headed for home, shop shut I felt utterly despondent, I wanted to drink, too late now. I hate this but craving easing now??? took vitamins today, ate well, walked a good few miles with dogs, I think I will be up all night, suppose better than drinking. All the conversations going round and round in my head. xx

Rar

I can understand that the getting sober process can be overwhelming. It was for me. The first few days all I thought about was drinking. Then next days all I thought about was NOT drinking. I'm on SR, read non drinking articles and books, watch YouTube stuff about drinking, etc. It's hard work, but I'm making an investment in myself. The obsession is getting less though and not drinking is becoming more natural.

Tomorrow is your Day 2. It will likely be another challenging day. Don't give up!!! Stay on SR. Keep busy. Post when you need help. Hang in there Mrs. Lamp. We're with you.

Midwest1981

I hope you are able to get some rest tonight. The first few days are the hardest but sobriety is worth all the effort you put into it.

Hevyn

I'm so happy you didn't leave us, MrsL. We all understand what you're going through. You can get past this miserable time and get free. I'm very glad you're posting.

least

Please stick with it. It's rough at first but it gets better. Sober is so much better.

SoberLeigh

Hope that you are sleeping well tonight, MrsLamp.

Delizadee

DON'T GO!!

I left more than once and regretted it so much.

Drop shame, and give yourself some love and empathy. Your family here is the light that will always be shining for you.
Stay, and build on that.

So much love, and understanding at this moment!!
xo Del

Dee74

hows it going mrslamp?

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Mummyto2

Don't give up you can do this

SoberLeigh

Thinking of you, MrsLamp.

Hawkeye13

Sending you good wishes MrsLamp

venuscat

I was thinking about you love and just saw this thread.
I hope you managed to get some sleep love....

I had some moments/days when I felt despondent in the beginning as well....lots of whirling thoughts....but the despondency turned into peace as the thoughts slowed down and the sober time built up.

We all care about you love....come back and talk to us. ♥