So, I'm usually on the friends & family forum, but in trying to handle that I found that drinking really helped! But I know it doesn't. After trying to just cut back or stop for a couple of days to prove I didn't have a problem, I found that I couldn't do it. It's everyday and I've started to scare myself with how bad I've gotten. I only drink at home, so my SO is the only one who knows. I know that I have to quit. So, here I am. Day 1 is almost over. This is the time of day I'd be drinking heavily. And it sucks so bad. I'm angry and really anxious and really ashamed.