Day 1
 

So, I'm usually on the friends & family forum, but in trying to handle that I found that drinking really helped! But I know it doesn't. After trying to just cut back or stop for a couple of days to prove I didn't have a problem, I found that I couldn't do it. It's everyday and I've started to scare myself with how bad I've gotten. I only drink at home, so my SO is the only one who knows. I know that I have to quit. So, here I am. Day 1 is almost over. This is the time of day I'd be drinking heavily. And it sucks so bad. I'm angry and really anxious and really ashamed.

Welcoem dustydreams - just like on the 'other side' of SR you'll find support here. Congratulations on day one - it all starts from that :)

Well done for recognising and admitting it DustyDreams :) We're all here for you x

Welcome Dusty. Glad you're here. I also only drank mostly at home, generally refusing a drink on social occasions away from home. One day I counted the number of beers I had already drank and was astounded. I didn't seem drunk to myself. Apparently I drank that amount every day. Hang in there.

Welcome Dusty! I’m glad you’re here!