Found some meetings
 

They are 4 days a week In my area. Was back down the shop at 10am this morning again. 2 bottles of wine and 4 beers. Never right.
Trying to pluck the courage to get to a meeting

If you can make it to the liquor store, you can make it to a meeting. It's all up to you to make the right choice.

Don't think, just go for it. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

What is the fear, exactly?

People with the same problem as you will be there with open arms.

Do you want to find a way out of this cycle? Give it a shot.

That's amazing!!! I agree with Culture--just do inside and don't think about it. Very brave of you :)

I know I need to go there.... is a bit daunting tho not gonna lie.
I moved to a new town so only know minimal people really but still scary.
Do I have to speak in them?
I’ve heard things about closed or open groups but I’m not sure

When I used to go you spoke if you wanted to.
You can at minimum introduce yourself if your asked to.

Dont worry most of them have seen it all before.

Being in a cycle of drinking 2 bottles of wine and 4 beers sounds more daunting than simply walking into a meeting.

If I went to any lengths to get a drink,
then I had to go to any lengths to make
a meeting. In doing so, we become
responsible in our own recovery.

Listen, learn, absorb and apply all
that you can with each step you take
as you begin building a strong solid
recovery foundation to live your
life upon for yrs to come.

Remember that it is okay to ask
for help, understanding, guidance,
suggestions and to know we are
never alone in this process to
achieve health, happiness and
honesty.

Sober Recovery Strong..!!! :)

I’ve emsiled them to make sure it’s happening tonight

Not at all. Walk in the door, sit down, and that's it. I would raise your hand when they ask if anyone is new so you get numbers to call. These will be the most important ones you will ever receive in early sobriety so you can reach out before you do something stupid.
Posting on here about how you are going to the liquor store first thing in the morning over and over clearly isn't helping.

Just go. Emailing is an excuse not to go. If they don't get back to you you should go anyhow. It's obvious you can get yourself around to a liquor store without knowing anyone in town. Did you care what the people who don't know you thought of you with that load of booze in your arms this morning?

Get to the meeting. Let us know how it goes.

One foot in front of the other, not via the shop.
Embrace the experience.
Knowledge is power.
Treat yourself, it’s free.

‘Don’t take the slide
Heroes and villains
Have tried and died’

you dont have to. however, those people cant help if they dont hear someone wanting help.

like going to the doctor and not telling him what youre there for.

You don't have to say anything if you don't want to. I'd suggest arriving 10 mins before the meeting start time so you'll be walking in with others arriving at the same time.

Likekihood is that someone will come over and shake your hand and introduce themselves. We're a friendly bunch. And you know, NONE of us forgot our first meeting and what its like having to walk in that door the first time. We all remember , and we empathise with every newcomer that arrives.

Open meeting means it's open to alcoholics and those with an interest in helping them. Closed meetings are for alcoholics only. You would be able to attend either.
Good luck, not that you'll need it. Let us know how it goes.

Hugs to you.

BB

Nothing changes if nothing changes Jimmy.
Why not give meetings a go? :)

D

Don't worry if you came out and drank. It takes a few meetings for things to sink in

Hey Jimmy, I was taken to my first meeting by the guy that 12 stepped me, so I already knew a few things.

I knew I didn't have to speak if I didn't want to. I didn't say a word for about six weeks. Listening did me a lot of good.

I knew I would see some steps on the wall which I may not like, but I knew an alcoholic of my type must take them if I want to recover.

I knew that there would be some people, probably only a few, who had taken those steps and could help me with them.

And I came to know that expecting to somehow absorb recovery through my seat in meetings, and not actually doing anything else, was not going to work.

It is easy to get the impression that going to lots of meetings will fix the problem. There is more to it than that.

Today is the day jimmy.
The day you became a man.
The day you said no more.
No more torment.
No more punishment.
The day you took the power back.

Do it jimmy, hold that head high.
Be that man.

Hey Jimmy! Thinking of you this morning, did you make it to a meeting?