Pete6256

Sitrep. It’s 8.58pm Eastern Time. I’m 5 days into quitting alcohol and drugs, this is the most dangerous time of the week for me because it’s usually the day I pick up drugs and I think I could count on one hand the amount of Friday’s I’ve had sober in the last 15 years.

I’ve eaten a nice Indian takeaway, done some of my ethereum developer course, watched about and as much ski jumping acrobatics as I can handle. Now I’m finding myself glancing at the clock every few mins waiting for nothing to happen.

I can’t help but constantly slipping into these fantasies about doing a line of coke and washing it down with a shot of fireball and a cold beer. That would be so good. I know this is going to get easier eventually, I just wish it was now.

wildflower70

I can’t help but constantly slipping into these fantasies about doing a line of coke and washing it down with a shot of fireball and a cold beer. That would be so good.

Hi,

Just remember...that's all it is, a fantasy. The reality looks much different. If your missing the "good times", take a few moments to remember the horrific times.

The shakes, withdrawals, loss of appetite, inability to do anything productive, the guilt, the shame.

Kind-of puts that fantasy into perspective...you can do this!

Boxer1

Stay barefoot! :0)

Pete6256

Thanks Flower, I’m trying to focus on all the money I haven’t spent this evening on booze and drugs. Which would easily be $300 by now.

dizzybee

Hey Pete!

Stay strong. It will pass. I also find it helpful to remember how crappy I'd actually feel the next day or whenever it all ended and the depression and anxiety and everything else crept in. "Play the tape forward" as they say. You got this.

Dee74

great tips for cravings here - I recommend Urge Surfing particularly

D

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-cravings.html (CarolD's tips for cravings)

Komplex

Stay strong Pete! I believe in you. 5 days is an accomplishment, find something to read, cook, or watch. You can do this!!

least

You're right - it does get easier. It just takes time. Be patient and stay sober. You won't feel this way forever.

DontRemember

This reads like a bad comedy sketch of my drinking/partying days. Stay home,buddy! Trust me!! We all know how this night ends in several different forms.

DreamCatcher17

Throw those shoes away and get a new pair!!!

Nonsensical

Actually, you can.
Brains can be retrained to think other thoughts.

Best of Luck on Your Journey!

August252015

Hi there- Just a "technical" note since it strikes me you might be that kind of thinker....there are tons of apps (plenty good free ones) for Android and iPhone that will track money (not) spent, days, a lot of things you can tally in sobriety that are motivating. I used SoberTime for quite awhile after quitting- the money saved alone was shocking!

Love the stay barefoot comment- spending time at home, going to bed as early as needed....that's the kind of stuff that got me through early days.

Hope you stayed home last night and are going to wake up to a clean day six- and hope to see you stick around!

Rar

Well it's morning here on the east coast. Hopefully, you have started your Day 6 and are thankful you went to bed sober. Hang in there.