Cara39

Hi all, I haven't been on SR for a while. I had almost 6 months sobriety but started drinking again in May and have been pretty much drinking daily since then.

In the first few months of sobriety I visited SR daily and even when I wasn't posting I was reading as much as I could. I then became complacent and didn't think I needed it and of course with no effort being made toward my recovery it wasn't long before I began drinking.

I'm 44 this year and I just feel so sad and angry when I think about how much my drinking has stolen from me in absolutely every aspect of my life. This has to stop because it's going to kill me. The way I'm existing now could not be described as a life.

Day 1, thanks for being here everyone.

Komplex

Welcome Cara, congrats on day 1

lessgravity

Welcome back. I've been in and out many times as well. Hoping to last this time.

Hope you do too.

Anna

Welcome back, Cara!

Alcoholism steals everything from us if we let it. I'm glad you're back.

Dee74

Welcome back Cara

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Hevyn

Very good to have you back, Cara. You sound determined & ready to do this. We know you can.

Ihadmyfill

Stick with it this time, I was there....it will get better. One minute at a time ....then one hour at a time...one day at a time. We didn't get sick all at once, so it will take some time to get well. Best wishes to you.

ProfessorD

Hi Cara! Thanks for sharing your story. The quote above really struck a chord with me. I can tell you really want to make this change, and I hope this time will be your last go around. A drink adds nothing good to our lives, and it takes everything. Congrats for getting back up any trying again

I also want to thank you for your post. I only have a month but I can already anticipate feeling complacent in the future. Your post is very valuable as a reminder to all of us in this struggle.

Ladysadie

There is nothing good for me about my drinking. I guess my wakeup to how pathetic I am when I am "toasted" had to do with someone videoing me. Talk about reality check. I found this website and try to visit daily, it helps keep me sober just by understanding that I am not alone. There is such a strength to be gained and inspiration from reading what others dare to share because we've all been there in varying degrees. I hope you keep coming back and letting us know how you are doing. It helps me!

J50

I'm a couple years younger than you, but I think I'm kind of going through a mini mid-life crisis. I too have thought about wasted time. I just saw a Zig Zigler quote that said, "it's not the length of life that matters, it's the depth." You can't do anything about lost time, but you can make up for it by living purposely and purposefully!