Question for you all
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Posts: 22
Loads of things really. But the biggest one for me was finally realising that the addiction would ultimately kill me either by health complications or some accident, which would in turn mean I would be abandoning my only child significantly earlier than I should be. As her only parent, that realisation was powerful. Proper brought me to my knees with guilt and shame. I quit that day.
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Join Date: Nov 2016
Posts: 782
Hangovers, wasted days, wasted life, guilt, anxiety, liver disease, menstruation problems, lack of energy, progressively drinking more, crazy drunken insulting conversations with family members and friends that i didnt remember in the morning, prospect of liver failure, loss of home, loss of health, loss of everyone around me, £1000's that could be spent on anything but alcohol....the list would have continued to go on.
the aggregate effect of 25 years of alcohol and drug use - and all of its consequences - finally brought me to the point that I truly desired a better life.
And I got it.
So much better.
I hope it doesn't take you that long to make the choice.
Sobriety is a choice.
You don't have to "hit bottom" if you don't want to.
And I got it.
So much better.
I hope it doesn't take you that long to make the choice.
Sobriety is a choice.
You don't have to "hit bottom" if you don't want to.
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Join Date: Jan 2018
Posts: 325
Deciding to stop sticking my head in the sand about the pain in my right side. The fact my drinking was incrementally increasing in terms of amount and starting earlier. The secrecy of it all, hiding when I was doing it, not answering the phone when I knew my voice would sound slurred. The fact nobody knew so I felt it was hard to tell anyone. The endless mornings waking up feeling awful and ashamed. The feeling of helplessness to the grip of addiction.
It all added up, but no one thing was the catalyst. I lurked on these boards for months and flirted with ideas of moderation. In the end bit the bullett and saw my Dr, got some scarey (though unsurprising) test results and faced the fact I was choosing a really slow way to commit suicide and I had other options.
It all added up, but no one thing was the catalyst. I lurked on these boards for months and flirted with ideas of moderation. In the end bit the bullett and saw my Dr, got some scarey (though unsurprising) test results and faced the fact I was choosing a really slow way to commit suicide and I had other options.
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