Emotional/sensitive/aargh!! !!
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Emotional/sensitive/aargh!! !!
30 days clean and sober today.
Mostly great to be honest
Following a daily plan
Getting slowly/steadily stronger that's cool!
BUT....
My feelings are like rampant masochists
Got it all going on.
It's not constant thank goodness
I heard someone say once that balance was something they passed as they journeyed from one extreme to the other.
I guess years of active addiction stunted my emotional growth and while I am no way a useless lightweight
I do have issues and can be easily uprooted.
All in all this is a positive thread
With an uplifting message I am amazed at my changing character
Just wondering if anyone identifies with the feelings thing.
I've seen another post about sweeeets OMG yes I do go overboard too!
One thing at a time.
G
Mostly great to be honest
Following a daily plan
Getting slowly/steadily stronger that's cool!
BUT....
My feelings are like rampant masochists
Got it all going on.
It's not constant thank goodness
I heard someone say once that balance was something they passed as they journeyed from one extreme to the other.
I guess years of active addiction stunted my emotional growth and while I am no way a useless lightweight
I do have issues and can be easily uprooted.
All in all this is a positive thread
With an uplifting message I am amazed at my changing character
Just wondering if anyone identifies with the feelings thing.
I've seen another post about sweeeets OMG yes I do go overboard too!
One thing at a time.
G
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Love your post.
I can totally relate to emotional sensitivity and changes and ups and downs and....
I can look back and say that it took quite awhile and there were plenty of extremes over months and the first year. In the second year (I will hit my second anniv on 2/21) there were "surprise" bouts - things that threw me, a little or a lot, that I didn't expect to because I'd "dealt with them" already.
It's all a process and for me, the best journey I could be on. I have learned - am learning- what I am really like (no alcohol to dilute me!) and am grateful to find an earnest and optimistic heart inside.
Keep going !
I can totally relate to emotional sensitivity and changes and ups and downs and....
I can look back and say that it took quite awhile and there were plenty of extremes over months and the first year. In the second year (I will hit my second anniv on 2/21) there were "surprise" bouts - things that threw me, a little or a lot, that I didn't expect to because I'd "dealt with them" already.
It's all a process and for me, the best journey I could be on. I have learned - am learning- what I am really like (no alcohol to dilute me!) and am grateful to find an earnest and optimistic heart inside.
Keep going !
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I'm receiving some unexpected female attention
It wasnt my doing totally out of the blue
But but but....
Headfuck for me.
Its like been going on for 6 days via txts
I went to this woman genuinely last week because I was experiencing serious back pain really awful.
Anyway I received a healthy treatment
But she keeps texting me
Now has invited me to hers next week to drink tea.
She's not texting loads she seems controlled and genuinely interested in me but I'm like going all volcanic inside
Trust issues
Doubts
Fears
OMG
If she reels me in and hurts me I'm like in danger but I'm really struggling to say back off.
Well actually I did on weds
I said I've heard enough
I'm going to bed leave me alone cya.
I told her I'm in recovery and to play with my Feelings could trigger a relapse.
But still she keeps texting kisses and asking me to write her poems.
Help!!
It wasnt my doing totally out of the blue
But but but....
Headfuck for me.
Its like been going on for 6 days via txts
I went to this woman genuinely last week because I was experiencing serious back pain really awful.
Anyway I received a healthy treatment
But she keeps texting me
Now has invited me to hers next week to drink tea.
She's not texting loads she seems controlled and genuinely interested in me but I'm like going all volcanic inside
Trust issues
Doubts
Fears
OMG
If she reels me in and hurts me I'm like in danger but I'm really struggling to say back off.
Well actually I did on weds
I said I've heard enough
I'm going to bed leave me alone cya.
I told her I'm in recovery and to play with my Feelings could trigger a relapse.
But still she keeps texting kisses and asking me to write her poems.
Help!!
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Originally Posted by Ghoster18 
I'm receiving some unexpected female attention
It wasnt my doing totally out of the blue
But but but....
Headfuck for me.
Its like been going on for 6 days via txts
I went to this woman genuinely last week because I was experiencing serious back pain really awful.
Anyway I received a healthy treatment
But she keeps texting me
Now has invited me to hers next week to drink tea.
She's not texting loads she seems controlled and genuinely interested in me but I'm like going all volcanic inside
Trust issues
Doubts
Fears
OMG
If she reels me in and hurts me I'm like in danger but I'm really struggling to say back off.
Well actually I did on weds
I said I've heard enough
I'm going to bed leave me alone cya.
I told her I'm in recovery and to play with my Feelings could trigger a relapse.
But still she keeps texting kisses and asking me to write her poems.
Help!!
It wasnt my doing totally out of the blue
But but but....
Headfuck for me.
Its like been going on for 6 days via txts
I went to this woman genuinely last week because I was experiencing serious back pain really awful.
Anyway I received a healthy treatment
But she keeps texting me
Now has invited me to hers next week to drink tea.
She's not texting loads she seems controlled and genuinely interested in me but I'm like going all volcanic inside
Trust issues
Doubts
Fears
OMG
If she reels me in and hurts me I'm like in danger but I'm really struggling to say back off.
Well actually I did on weds
I said I've heard enough
I'm going to bed leave me alone cya.
I told her I'm in recovery and to play with my Feelings could trigger a relapse.
But still she keeps texting kisses and asking me to write her poems.
Help!!
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