zero
 

0 again ...self injured husband beyond caring
i dont matter
had slept 3 hours ...dont need sleep dont need anything
am beyond caring

Hi GMS
I think you need to call your regular doctor or therapist or at least the community nurse.

Maybe even go to the ER - but please do reach out.

Sometimes things get on tiop of us and it's just too much for us to deal with without help - and there's no shame in that.

You are worthy of help :)

D

GMS

Please please get yourself some medical help.right now!

You do matter!

Best wishes, Dusty😎

Please let us know you are getting some help at this point. You might feel crappy but you matter very much!

Grant,

Like Dee said. 911 if you are desperate. They will get you helped and stablilzed.

If I can't stay sober and sane using my current methods, I plan to adjust.

My level of comfort has continued to sin wave for the last 3 or so years. There are still ups and downs, but the overall trend has been upward.

Staying booze and drug free during my recovery was often painful. I suffer. But, the suffering ebs quickly.

I didn't even find SR until I was 80 days clean. I thought I was going crazy. It was kindling and PAWS.

I absolutely understand that everyone is different. The issues we all feel are as variable as the cosmos.

I pray that you take care and seek out what you need to be well.

Thanks.

I may have given you this link before GMS but I have it on good authority its a good safe community

bus web board - Index page

D

just to let you all know am ok was feeling very down the last few days
went to An AA meeting tonight and talked to people there
feeling better now
am so lucky i have here and friend my husband some people have no one
some people are unwell with things like cancer or other illness and here i am thinking only off myself
my life could be much worse there are people out there who go through hell on a daily bases who dont feel sorry for themselves
thank you for the link dee

Glad you posted. We all care about you. Stay close.

I'm glad you posted too GMS - good you feel a little better today :)

D

Relieved that you're ok, GMS. You're important to us.

It doesn't matter if others have it 'worse' - your feelings are valid & they must be paid attention to. I'm glad you posted. Most of us have felt that same way - I know I have. You matter - never think otherwise.

GMS, I'm glad that you're feeling a bit better, too.

Try to keep believing that you are worth fighting for.

Hi GMS

How are you today?

Hope that you are in a better place.
I know things spiral out of control and true perspective can disappear at the time when you need it most.

I look forward to communicating through your posts.

Best wishes, Dusty😎

You are worth it and you matter😎

still dont feel right , my heart is hurting emotionally all the past things am finding hard trying not to believe that its my fault
got a group to go to tonight really just want to stay at home and hide husband says i need to try and go out at a group at the moment
bought some bubble bath and soap also a teddy out of the anime shop psyduck from pokemon think am going to start by more of them get
watching more anime kinda cheers me up got a meeting on thursday
one of the problems am having is that am not talking to my sister at the moment because of family disgreement my sister protected me until i was 10 she was 13 she fighted with my mum tried to hit her with a mental poll at the time we where talking to my biogical father who at the time was around she was forced to stay for a few months when she was gone i was abused she wasnt there and i felt abandoned by everyone grew up with abandonment issues keep having bad thoughts of late that something is going to happen to my husband am scared all the time even when we are together am scared that something or i am going to hurt him its been whats been wrong with me for a little while i start music therapy next week and will be doing it for 6 months but i need to keep going even when things are hard i need to keep going
something i feel i cant face but i have to

Sounds like your Husband is trying to help you GMS, I would listen to him - he is right that you do need to keep going to your therapy/group sessions. A bubble bath and watching some anime that you enjoy sounds like a good plan too.

I believe that your husband cares about you very much and wants what is best for you. Listen to him.

We care about you, too, GrantMeSerenity. ❤️

GMS, it sounds like you are doing good things to help yourself, including listening to your husband. I hope you continue to feel better.

Some days it's one foot in front of the other, GMS. I admire your strength and perseverance. You're very courageous. :hug:

I hope you go to the meeting GMS. Music therapy sounds great too :)

I'm really sorry about all those horrific things in your past, but I know you're a survivor and you'll get through this too :)

D