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Originally Posted by mandypandy
(Post 6769112)
Tomorrow I am going to go to AA, I cannot do this by constantly sitting alone. When I drink the way I want to drink, my spirit and soul goes to a deep, dark place where I am very isolated and alone. And they call alcohol a depressant . . . :rolleyes2 The good news is I never have to feel that way away, or ever be alone again. |
2ndhandrose and Ken, thanks for the encouragment. Deep dark place doesn't even give justice to the black abyss I keep jumping into! But that was the last drink. I would have gone to AA yesterday, but there was only an afternoon one near me and I felt too ill. Had the night from hell last night, only slept for an hour at a time and some weird, vivid lunaticness thrown up by my unconscious. I have also stopped smoking. Haven't had one for 24 hours. Am also stopping popping OTC painkillers . Have to taper on that one because it got a bit much last night. Once the drink withdrawals and smoking withdrawals die down a bit, I'll stop those entirely too. |
Originally Posted by mandypandy
(Post 6770692)
I have also stopped smoking. Haven't had one for 24 hours. Am also stopping popping OTC painkillers . Have to taper on that one because it got a bit much last night. Once the drink withdrawals and smoking withdrawals die down a bit, I'll stop those entirely too. |
Good Morning Mandy :) (it is morning for me) I would agree that you have a lot on your plate. Not that I want to encourage anyone to smoke, but I wonder if you put that one aside for now, so as to put yourself in the best position for successful sobriety? Please keep posting, we really care :grouphug: |
I would focus on one at a time Fallingstars, and 2ndhandrose but I think one addiction feeds another. Basically, I'm just sick of having a dependence on any substance. Panic when I ran out of drink in the middle of binge, panic when I run out of painkillers, panic when I run out of tobacco. I'm getting on a bit now, so am going for it all together, anyway, I had no choice but to stop smoking as I already spent all my money on booze! I'll see how I go, if it gets too hard, I'll do it more slowly |
I hear you, mandy. Just keep posting, you don't have to do this alone :grouphug: |
rose, thank you. I will make another thread to post on. Just clicking on "Life is Black" to post on here is depressing in itself |
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