Unfortunately I did relapse
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Location: Boston, MA
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Is there a reason you no longer attend AA? I'm not judging but wonder why you no longer attend meetings but still use some of the tools and you mentioned how you were once active in the program. Is it because you relapsed and are ashamed or another reason? It is a great way to fill in the time when the days are long and you don't want to drink. I am not a fan of the program myself, but I did use it the first year of sobriety along with therapy.
I am going to go back to AA. I use to work in the city with numerous meetings a day. The last job I had was working from home just couldn't seem to find the time. Thank you for asking I need to return I just find it challenging to get to them now. No excuse AA saved my life at one point.
My fourth time reaching the two month mark put that exact realization in my head. It sucks and getting past it is the only thing you can do. I had cravings bad, there were two 2 months stints separated by a day where the cravings pretty much never stopped. Realizing how long two months actually was helped me keep trucking on the fourth time I passed it (hopefully the last, I'm coming up on a year.
Thank you and that is truly remarkable. Happy for you. I just realized I asked my Aunt how she does it be sober for 18 years? I bet she thought how do you do this?? Putting yourself through misery again and again. That just dawned on me . Thank you for your post
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I 'relapsed' or as I say "I got f'n wasted" at almost 8mo.. Very mild physical withdrawl...or whatever,but the drunken 'actions'/shame were the same the next morning. I felt like a horrible person for about a week. I didn't do anything illegal,this time,but the feeling of shame and "this isn't you"..were there again. After 1 night of getting trashed! Crazy.. Just start again like I did.. I consider that night a hiccup in my recovery. Hell..that night is in my post history and I hate to even read it today.. NO MORE of those!
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