21 days sober
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21 days sober
I have never spoken out before about my problem as I suppose like many others always thought I was in control.
I have been drinking for years socially and heavily but the past 10 years to the point of I really dont know how I am not dead ... 2 bottles of wine a day sometimes ... thats 14 a week and probably more. Like so many alcoholics I am super clever super sneaky so nobody would know I can cover my tracks really well ... I would have a bottle of wine during the day and then when husband would come in open another so he wouldnt notice he just would think I cant hold my drink and usually I am asleep by 8.00pm and up at 7.00am I could start again nobody suspecting as who would drink at 7.00am.
I clear all my bottles away to the recyling so no trace there. Thinking I am fooling people and really clever but the only person is me.
I am not the sort of person who can ask for help no matter how many times I have needed it. This forum has been so helpful and it has made me realise I am not alone and I have been going on it everyday and reading so many stories like mine.
I have been sober 21 days with the help of many personnel stories on this site ... I am feeling and looking good and feeling alive again... thank everyone for their stories and honesty. To all who are struggling you are not alone and if I can do this anyone can. Stay strong.
I have been drinking for years socially and heavily but the past 10 years to the point of I really dont know how I am not dead ... 2 bottles of wine a day sometimes ... thats 14 a week and probably more. Like so many alcoholics I am super clever super sneaky so nobody would know I can cover my tracks really well ... I would have a bottle of wine during the day and then when husband would come in open another so he wouldnt notice he just would think I cant hold my drink and usually I am asleep by 8.00pm and up at 7.00am I could start again nobody suspecting as who would drink at 7.00am.
I clear all my bottles away to the recyling so no trace there. Thinking I am fooling people and really clever but the only person is me.
I am not the sort of person who can ask for help no matter how many times I have needed it. This forum has been so helpful and it has made me realise I am not alone and I have been going on it everyday and reading so many stories like mine.
I have been sober 21 days with the help of many personnel stories on this site ... I am feeling and looking good and feeling alive again... thank everyone for their stories and honesty. To all who are struggling you are not alone and if I can do this anyone can. Stay strong.
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Welcome Daisy!
Your story sounds very similar to mine. I'm now on day 23 and only now really realising how bad things had gotten.
Well done for posting here - it takes lots of courage to take that step. Keep up the good work!
Your story sounds very similar to mine. I'm now on day 23 and only now really realising how bad things had gotten.
Well done for posting here - it takes lots of courage to take that step. Keep up the good work!
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I made sure the recycling was always out to the dumpster for quite a few years. Didn't want anyone to know how big the pile of cans was getting every day. Still working on changing those bottles and cans into Coke and sparkling water but getting better
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Thank you beginning to think that I might just make this although I know its early days and I am a bit up and down but trying so hard to stay positive ... nice to know I am not doing it on my own ... it means a lot.❤
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Hope you too are doing ok 😊
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Hope you are doing well
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I used to get so excited at the thought of a couple of glasses in the evening ... totally addicted ... never could stop at 1 or 2 .
It really had a very strong hold on me cant believe I have got this far without it ..
Thank you for support means a lot not to be on my own.
Each day is getting better and clearer although I still dont feel totally back to normal still getting headaches and a few other things ... but I know each day is a bonus and a step in the right direction.
Hope you are staying strong too 😊
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