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I didn't drink today. I've been drinking anywhere from a 12 pack to an 18 pack a day almost every day for several years. I've quit before. But usually I get to feeling really good after a few days and go right back to it. It's affected my marriage and I don't want to get divorced. Just turned 50 years old. I think I'm a highly functioning alcoholic but I'm sure I'm kidding myself. Hopefully getting some of this off my chest will help.
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Hi and welcome pauleyp 
becoming part of this community kept me sober.
Thats a considerable amount of alcohol per day - if you start feeling unwell or concerned, do consider seeing your Dr.
D
becoming part of this community kept me sober.
Thats a considerable amount of alcohol per day - if you start feeling unwell or concerned, do consider seeing your Dr.
D
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Thank you, Dee. Fortunately my blood work says my liver is still functioning normally. I do have Type II Diabetes, however. I got all my blood work back to normal levels in just a few months. This was six years ago. I'm hopeful that I can do it again.
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Welcome PauleyP!!! Takes guts to post on here first time eh? So use that bravery to keep on going. I think you said you had blood work done a few years back and it was normal. Time for some more test tubes and pee in the cup....ugh. But it must be done. The Dr. can help you during acute withdrawal if you are honest about quantity and time span. If you are planning to go it alone, that is. As you can tell this is the best forum for Recovery on the web and I did my research! Got questions, concerns, need advice, anything? Firstly, let's get you detoxed. Dr. will tell you what YOU need as we are individuals and each case has even the most subtlest difference. We got members with experience in nutrition, physical activity, mindfulness, hell everything we need to begin our journey. Godspeed and keep posting. There are NO dumb questions. Ask Ask.
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Hi Pauley - It's so good to have you with us. I'm glad you've made the decision to get free.
Congrats on your sober time. The early days are very uncomfortable. We've been anesthetizing ourselves for so long - it's like learning to live in a whole new way. Each day you get a bit stronger, a bit more hopeful. Be proud of yourself for taking action.
Congrats on your sober time. The early days are very uncomfortable. We've been anesthetizing ourselves for so long - it's like learning to live in a whole new way. Each day you get a bit stronger, a bit more hopeful. Be proud of yourself for taking action.
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Welcome to SR!
I think I'm a highly functioning alcoholic but I'm sure I'm kidding myself.
Yes, you are.
I thought I was a high functioning alcoholic for a long time. Then the xxx hit the fan, and I realized that my concept of being high functioning, was just another form of denial.
I think I'm a highly functioning alcoholic but I'm sure I'm kidding myself.
Yes, you are.
I thought I was a high functioning alcoholic for a long time. Then the xxx hit the fan, and I realized that my concept of being high functioning, was just another form of denial.
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Hi pauleyp. I had the same problem for the longest time — sober up, feel better, go back to it. One day I allowed myself to just stop at the feeling better part. It wasn't easy, but I'm worth it, and you're worth it.
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Wednesdays are a tough day. I have to be at work at 5am and have a meeting from 2:30-3:30. After fighting traffic, I stop about halfway home (150 mile round trip) to get dinner at a grocery store. I always get beer and drink 2 or 3 the rest of the way home. I had to go down the beer aisle twice because I couldn't find something.
I made it home sober for day 3. What got me out of that store without buying beer was that I thought I'd probably be disappointed with myself tomorrow for not being able to post here that I was sober for 3 days. It has been roughly a year since the last time I didn't drink for 3 days straight.
Congrats to me!
Thank you everyone for the wonderful support so far.
I made it home sober for day 3. What got me out of that store without buying beer was that I thought I'd probably be disappointed with myself tomorrow for not being able to post here that I was sober for 3 days. It has been roughly a year since the last time I didn't drink for 3 days straight.
Congrats to me!
Thank you everyone for the wonderful support so far.
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Hang in there. I'm returning to this site after being away. Take care
Jenny
Originally Posted by pauleyp 
I didn't drink today. I've been drinking anywhere from a 12 pack to an 18 pack a day almost every day for several years. I've quit before. But usually I get to feeling really good after a few days and go right back to it. It's affected my marriage and I don't want to get divorced. Just turned 50 years old. I think I'm a highly functioning alcoholic but I'm sure I'm kidding myself. Hopefully getting some of this off my chest will help.
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Keep up the good work. Your story resonates with me totally (age, family situation, thinking I was *functional* as an alcoholic) and I'm five months in. It can be done and you've hooked up with a great community of people who get it.
Welcome.
Welcome.
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