I would brush sporadically when I was a drunk.
Often I would wake up after a binge, cotton mouth, headache, sick, red eyed.
I would look at my fat bloated face in the mirror and shake my head.
I knew I was addicted but couldn't stop until I found this site.
My desire to quit combined w the information and participation here, saved me.
These days I am much better. I go to work and folks are suprised by my interest.
I used to avoid interactions because I reeked of booze and was very weak.
Getting over the physical addiction was hard and horrible. The mental healing was/is equally difficult.
Relapse looms. I am beginning to stabilize nicely. Drug free except....
I just popped a zyrtec because my nose started running away.
Otherwise, I am present and beginning to feel nicely human for the first time in my life.
When I crave I think of the next day after effects:
high blood pressure, sleep issues, strength loss, immune system compromise (sick).
BpSSS. My mantra.
Studied "alcohol kindling" and "alcohol PAWS."
Last intoxication: 8 May 15.