JamesSquire

Hi All

Yes, I'm back.

My absence has been due to the fact that every time, I'm here in SR, I announce my restart of abstinence and no sooner fail. I made a decision that I'm not returning to SR unless I can make for 7 days straight, so that I'm not wasting any SRians time.

As you can see I couldn't do the 7 days straight. Can't believe it was 2 years ago.

I have had some good days and some not so good days. Didn't have drop to drink on NYE but made up for it the next day. I've been in a revolving door with alcohol. From my previous time at SR I have curbed my drinking enough to keep my wife happy but still a long way to where I want to be.

But it doesn't mean I wasn't here. I'd sneak in every so often looking for maybe some sort of salvation. Also on how everyone was going. I must say, congratulations to Saoutchik. I understand now I wasn't taking responsibility but looking for excuses.

Today, I read a Thread by Goodlife32 and someone suggested to read '51 Things You Should Know About Recovery'. I found words that made sense,
willingness and surrender
Intentions are worthless in recovery. Only action matters.
If you are not pushing yourself to grow in recovery, then you might be getting closer to relapse

Then I found something even more revealing,
Fellowship is important (finding others who are on the same path as you are, with the same basic goals)

It occurred to me, I can only get help from people who have gone through it and understand my steep climbing journey. Provide me with support and advise. So here I am back at SR because I need help from you.

I've got a Plan which includes a visit to SR as much as I can everyday.

It's 6:30pm, my wife's out, dinner with her friends and I've got to pick my daughter from the movies at 8pm. Might treat myself to a healthy takeaway(takeout) . I'll check in before I go to bed tonight. I feel good.

Thanks all,
JS

MythOfSisyphus

Welcome back!

Dee74

Welcome back James

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Zanna

Welcome back I can relate to the New Year thing, in previous years I would resist all through the holidays and then when the pressure was off 'Wham' I caved in - relaxed too much, I guess. Same with a lot of big events.
It can be done though, keep your guard up and keep posting. You're not wasting anyone's time

JamesSquire

Thanks Dee
You're always good for support.

Verdantia

Hey, James--welcome back! SR has been an enormous help to me in getting and staying sober. It's okay to post if you've been drinking; you aren't wasting my time--I get it. I'm glad you have a plan and I wish you much peace and strength on your sober journey.

Hawkeye13

Glad your back!

SoberLeigh

Welcome back, JamesSquire.

Good to see you.

saoutchik

Hey hey! Great to see you James,! it sounds like you are doing well even if you haven't quit yet.

JamesSquire

Thanks Verdantia. Peace and Strength .. That would be good

Saoutchik, my old classmate, good to see you're well and still here. So I guess we could discuss the cricket now that England is decimating Australia in the One Day, LOL
Who would have thought the tables would be turned after the Ashes Test

Hevyn

Great to see you again, JS.

I agree that you sure aren't wasting our time. We're here to encourage you as you begin again to seek a sober life. We know you can do it. Welcome back.

Offthemast

Now I can't get the song "return of the mack" out of my head. Thanks Squire.

JamesSquire

LOL, I was thinking in terms of 'Return of the Jedi"

saoutchik

I remember that, not a bad track at all. Rubbish early 90s video though.

saoutchik

It is very much the consolation prize, you outplayed us in the main event. We were a bit shambolic tbh.