“Normalcy”
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“Normalcy”
So, I ain’t got a craving this morning
I’ve got something else
The mindset-that I’ve had so many times- that my drinking problem was bogus
That I have finally gotten my mind right and I can drink normally
It’s been 44 days
But instead of waiting til my family left and begin to self-medicate (although nothing is seemingly wrong TO ‘...medicate’), I told this out loud
Sure, I might drink okay
I might do it 25 times
Then the 26th time I get another D.U.I. ...or worse
Much worse
So, instead of hiding my thoughts I make them known
And I say Hell No again
to whatever clever daemon is whispering into my ear
I’ve got something else
The mindset-that I’ve had so many times- that my drinking problem was bogus
That I have finally gotten my mind right and I can drink normally
It’s been 44 days
But instead of waiting til my family left and begin to self-medicate (although nothing is seemingly wrong TO ‘...medicate’), I told this out loud
Sure, I might drink okay
I might do it 25 times
Then the 26th time I get another D.U.I. ...or worse
Much worse
So, instead of hiding my thoughts I make them known
And I say Hell No again
to whatever clever daemon is whispering into my ear
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OMgosh . . . yes. . . EXACTLY what you are saying Rodney.
I'm only day 8, but I'm having the same, uhm . . . "feeling"? "sensation"? It's not a craving. It's like a shift in mindset or something. Yesterday I was clear that I was a non-drinker. Then something hit me at about 10 a.m. this morning, that I AM a drinker.
But being a drinker is not acceptable to me. I no longer drink.
I'm not sure how to get back on top of this "feeling". It's messing with me. It unsettling me.
I'm only day 8, but I'm having the same, uhm . . . "feeling"? "sensation"? It's not a craving. It's like a shift in mindset or something. Yesterday I was clear that I was a non-drinker. Then something hit me at about 10 a.m. this morning, that I AM a drinker.
But being a drinker is not acceptable to me. I no longer drink.
I'm not sure how to get back on top of this "feeling". It's messing with me. It unsettling me.
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Originally Posted by milly4me 
I'm not sure how to get back on top of this "feeling".
Brains are lazy. They prefer to think things they've thought about before. It's easier than thinking new thoughts. Mine thought about drinking for a very long time, and I just let it. Then I didn't want it to think about drinking anymore, but it took me a long time before my 'resting' brain was used to not thinking about drinking. Before that happened I did my darndest to not let my brain rest.
Give it something else to think about. It won't want to. It will rebel. It will claim to be confused because it knows you hate that and you'll relent. Don't relent. Make it do it. It takes time and practice, but it can be done.
You can do this.
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something to think about,Rodney:
normalcy- a mind that thinks right-doesnt even think that a drinking problem was bogus. a normal thinking mind doesnt war over whether it can drink normally or not.
give it time and it will come naturally to not even have the war. you will know and not entertain the thought- your thinking will become normal.
normalcy- a mind that thinks right-doesnt even think that a drinking problem was bogus. a normal thinking mind doesnt war over whether it can drink normally or not.
give it time and it will come naturally to not even have the war. you will know and not entertain the thought- your thinking will become normal.
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Originally Posted by Nonsensical
Practice.
Brains are lazy. They prefer to think things they've thought about before. It's easier than thinking new thoughts. Mine thought about drinking for a very long time, and I just let it. Then I didn't want it to think about drinking anymore, but it took me a long time before my 'resting' brain was used to not thinking about drinking. Before that happened I did my darndest to not let my brain rest.
Give it something else to think about. It won't want to. It will rebel. It will claim to be confused because it knows you hate that and you'll relent. Don't relent. Make it do it. It takes time and practice, but it can be done.
You can do this.
Brains are lazy. They prefer to think things they've thought about before. It's easier than thinking new thoughts. Mine thought about drinking for a very long time, and I just let it. Then I didn't want it to think about drinking anymore, but it took me a long time before my 'resting' brain was used to not thinking about drinking. Before that happened I did my darndest to not let my brain rest.
Give it something else to think about. It won't want to. It will rebel. It will claim to be confused because it knows you hate that and you'll relent. Don't relent. Make it do it. It takes time and practice, but it can be done.
You can do this.
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